The phenomenology of a racist world

You know, for those living in the shadow of the system, black people and other POC (I wonder if the distinction of a person according to their skin colour is a subconscious symbology to describe the shadow cast on them) they can’t describe or develop their own phenomenology because it’s so antithetical to how white people experience their world that it’s an existential threat. They hear, anti-whiteness.

The stability of their world DEPENDS on the repression of its shadow, therefore they feel implicated and the cost of that implication is too high. Because to see the experiences of black people is to acknowledge the illusion of the world you’ve planted your identity in. It calls into question EVERYTHING you’re about. It starts to feel like disintegration- it’s not. It’s just an integration into WHAT IS. A collapse of dissociation.

You can see this mechanism in play when climate change is mentioned – the denial that the unsustainable lifestyle of dissociation is causing active harm, then the invalidation of earth itself (it’s getting cooler, it’s always been this way, it’ll course correct on its own)

The truth is eternal but our connection to it isn’t

Note: this is an honest intellectual examination of Jesus from the angle of a significant prophet in Islaam and a recurrent character in the Qur’aan, as well as his mother who has an entire chapter devoted to her ( surah Maryam). It’s not an attack or belittlement of Christians. Rather, it’s a retracing of the steps treaded by some of the worst of humans in history to claim Christendom and how ego corrupts the truth.

If you believe god died for your sins, do you expect others to center your existence in that way? If you believe that the worst of atrocities are written off by allegiance, do you see others outside your group as subhuman? The same people who persecuted Jesus are the ones who turned his message around and shopped it around to the European establishment, paying homage to the anthropomorphism of the Greeks. Though I unequivocally don’t believe Jesus was crucified but ascended, I believe his message was crucified and made into a caricature by centering the human existence, the ego, and not the divine.

Anthropocentrism (the belief that human beings are the most significant entity of the universe) is just a stone cast away from white supremacy, once you establish that only whites are humans.

Impair the imperialist

We do not know the size and strength of our own manias until they fall upon us and drag us down, or the barrenness of our inner deserts until real loneliness, fear, bewilderment and sun-madness have cast us into them. There is something huge and dark in the African world which can chew through the defences of white men who have not been harnessed to that continent’s almost mindless friendship with suffering and annihilation. Concrete buildings, clinics and city settlements can hide it, almost, but out in the wastes you never forget that the friendly hyena is there to clean you if you should die in the grey grass among the thorns. It is truly a mighty continent and you feel it when you lie down in darkness under the stars, your blanket around you, and you listen to its powerful silence, a silence made up of various small sounds become one steady background drone and clicking, of cicadas, insects of every kind, mosquitoes, all whirring and hissing in one silence peculiar to Africa.

Of all the desiccated, bitter, cruel, sunbeaten wildernesses which starve and thirst beyond the edges of Africa’s luscious, jungled centre, there cannot be one more Christless than the one which begins at the northern foot of Mount Kenya and stretches to the foothills of Abyssinia, and from there to the dried-out glittering tip of Cape Gardafui where the hot karif winds blow in from where the long sharks race under the thin blue skin of the ocean. You can never think of those wildernesses without thinking of daggers and spears, rolling fierce eyes under mops of dusty black crinkly hair, of mad stubborn camels, rocks too hot to touch, and blood feuds whose origins cannot be remembered, only honoured in the stabbing. But of all the races of Africa there cannot be one better to live among than the most difficult, the proudest, the bravest, the vainest, the most merciless, the friendliest; the Somalis.

I knew an Italian priest who had spent over thirty years among the Somalis, and he made two converts, and it amazed me that he got even those two. The Prophet has no more fervent, and ignorant, followers, but it is not their fault that they are ignorant. Their natural intelligence is second to none and when the education factories start work among them they should surprise Africa, and themselves.

I never saw a Somali who showed any fear of death, which, impressive though it sounds, carries within it the chill of pitilessness and ferocity as well. If you have no fear of death you have none for anybody else’s death either, but that fearlessness has always been essential to the Somalis who have had to try and survive hunger, disease and thirst while prepared to fight and die against their enemies, their fellow Somalis for pleasure in the blood feud, or the Ethiopians who would like to rule them, or the white men who got in the way for a while. ¹


Wandering in the Shag were Somalis with some of the sharpest intelligences in the continent, nomads who had been forced into being parasites of the camel, for centuries, and could anyone ever find a way of using all that courage and intelligence? This unique people, with their great vanity, and their touching bravery in the way in which they try and cope with their difficult life, have no palm oil, no cocoa, no coffee, gold, no diamonds to sell, only their camels. ²


The Somalis bitterly resent the white man, and struggle continually, and admirably, by lies and intrigue, to fight off his influence which spells the end of their peculiar world. You cannot beat them. They have no inferiority complexes, no wide-eyed worship of the white man’s ways, and no fear of him, of his guns or of his official anger. They are a race to be admired, if hard to love. ³


There is no one alive as tough as the Somali nomad. No one.
An askari wounded in a fight in the Haud country walked fourteen miles holding his guts in his hand, was sewn up and lived to soldier again. And the women are as spiritually strong as their men. ⁴


Hanley, Gerald. Warriors : Life and Death Among the Somalis. Eland , 1993. [Scribd version]


¹ pgs.29-31
² pg.73
³ pg.153
pg.117

is religion antiquated?

When people denounce religion in a reductivist way as to imply that modernity should make us all transcend such baseness, it makes me fear for humanity. Those who say this are usually white people in industrialized nations, where they are so far removed from the raw human condition that dwells in the cracks of suffering like poverty like death of children like rampant spread of crippling diseases, that they’ve forgotten their insignificant place in this universe.

 
Religion is ingrained in the subconscious as an archetype – it’s shaped the paths we’ve crossed as a collective from time immemorial. When you look down on it, you have put yourself at the centre of the universe. You’ve erased your human limits and imperfections because modern conveniences insulates you from feeling the powerlessness this man felt.

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Sooterkin

PewDiePie though not my cup of tea, seems like a genuinely good person. He has a very wholesome vibe about him. But the recent debacle about his controversial antisemitic joke spread through the media like wildfire, courtesy of Wall Street Journal’s framing him as a decided anti-Semitic nazi-sympathizer.

To those who don’t know PewDiePie’s humour and context of his videos could very well come away with the conviction that he’s absolute scum. Context matters. 

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