where the winds are headed

Validation is rizq

Love is rizq

Self-awareness is rizq

Courage is rizq

Success is rizq

Stability is rizq

Confidence is rizq

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The key to receiving is to realize that everything in existence is His, and whatever He grants you no one can hold back. All the hearts are between His fingers, and He holds everyone by their foreheads. He can make your worst enemy subservient to you. Therefore, do not attribute that divine power to others or give yourself undue importance in that somehow you’re innately undeserving. What that would entail is that Allaah created you with a fixed burden and that’s simply not His M.O. Whatever shortcomings we have is only to act as catalyst for growth. Internalizing things based on how others mistreated you is to deface your soul. 

If anything, you experience unloving people to know that that’s wrong because it offends the soul. Allaah is showing you through contrast in order for you to learn. 
The channel to receiving all you need is to be grateful. Gratitude is an antidote to resentment, arrogance, entitlement, shame. It connotes an expectation of love and anticipation of good. It’s a recognition of the divine gifts you pine for. 
If you experience a lack, or mistreatment or emotional pain, it’s not because there’s something wrong with you. It’s not because you haven’t done enough to earn love because you had your rizq assigned before you were born. Your only purpose is to find and embody enlightenment, which is ibaadah of Allaah. He wants you to feel loved, to feel significant, to feel empowered, to feel free, to feel able because that’s what He created you for! He didn’t create you to be stagnant. He created you to discover and share your gifts, in gratitude for receiving them. The taxation for blessings is to share them. And He wishes ease for us, not hardship. 
Whatever we feel that constricts our hearts or burdens us is a sign that we’re not aligned with our truth. We’re living out the scripts of those who can’t give us what we need or deprive us. People just dole out credits on divine gifts, claiming that if you sign the dotted line you’d receive validation but it’s a scam. You know that. You know that people only want to control and overpower and that’s why they seduce you with validation and love. 

Whatever you experience on the outside is only meant to draw attention to the places within you that need remedying. It’s a call to purify your soul and remove the blocks. Don’t add fuel to the fire by internalizing that lesson as further proof of your doom of misery and unlovability. 

فَتَقَبَّلَهَا رَبُّهَا بِقَبُولٍ حَسَنٍ وَأَنْبَتَهَا نَبَاتًا حَسَنًا وَكَفَّلَهَا زَكَرِيَّا  كُلَّمَا دَخَلَ عَلَيْهَا زَكَرِيَّا الْمِحْرَابَ وَجَدَعِنْدَهَا رِزْقًا قَالَ يَا مَرْيَمُ أَنَّىٰ لَكِ هَٰذَا قَالَتْ هُوَ مِنْ عِنْدِ اللَّهِ إِنَّ اللَّهَ يَرْزُقُ مَنْ يَشَاءُ بِغَيْرِ حِسَابٍ

So her Lord accepted her with goodly acceptance. He made her grow in a good manner and put her under the care of Zakariya. Every time he entered Al-Mihrab to (visit) her , he found her supplied with sustenance. He said: “O Maryam (Mary)! From where have you got this?” She said, “This is from Allaah.” Verily, Allaah Provides sustenance to whom He wills, without limit.” 

(Aali Imran 3:37) 

لِيَجْزِيَهُمُ اللَّهُ أَحْسَنَ مَا عَمِلُوا وَيَزِيدَهُمْ مِنْ فَضْلِهِ  وَاللَّهُ يَرْزُقُ مَنْ يَشَاءُ بِغَيْرِ حِسَابٍ 



That Allaah may reward them according to the best of their deeds, and add even more for them out of His Grace. And Allaah Provides without measure to whom He wills.

(An-Nur 24:38) 

قُلْ إِنَّ رَبِّي يَبْسُطُ الرِّزْقَ لِمَن يَشَاءُ مِنْ عِبَادِهِ وَيَقْدِرُ لَهُ  وَمَا أَنفَقْتُم مِّن شَيْءٍ فَهُوَ يُخْلِفُهُ  وَهُوَ خَيْرُ الرَّازِقِينَ



Say: “Truly, my Lord enlarges the provision for whom He wills of His slaves, and (also) restricts (it) for him, and whatsoever you spend of anything (in Allaah’s Cause), He will replace it. And He is the Best of Providers.” 

(Saba’ 34:39) 

“Why is representation so important to minorities?”

Found this gem of an observation on Reddit. I can’t remember the username but it’s so beautiful in its succinctness that I just have to share:

​Because minorities are constantly made aware of the fact that their experiences are less valuable than the experiences of others.

 Minorities are forced to interact with the world according to the worldview of the majority, which is probably very different from their own, so they learn very quickly how to see the world differently. They have to change their behavior to fit the experiences of others. So they know that the world is bigger than their own experiences because their own experiences are consistently devalued.

White people (at least in America) can go through pretty much all of their childhoods in an environment that is designed to fit their shared [white] experiences and never have to accept a worldview other than their own.

 As adults, they can be shown other worldviews, but more than likely they can still just ignore them and go about their business without ever being forced to confront the reality that other people have other experiences, even when the evidence of that is very obvious (like documented police brutality towards minorities).

 The experiences of minorities rarely, if ever, directly affect them so they have no particular reason to deal with them.

a loving re:minder 

​People don’t have to get your struggle for you to fully heal. Only you can fully experience and know what it is you’re feeling and struggling with. Whilst it’s human to want to be acknowledged and want to be understood, don’t undermine your strength and worth by making your journey (or parts of it)  dependent on others. People don’t have to approve or validate what you do, and most probably won’t. Because they aren’t your parents, and you’re not a small child no more. I don’t say this in a harsh manner where I’m berating you for feeling what you are feeling. I don’t believe in invalidating others experiences, in whatever form. But I want to make a distinction between allowing yourself to feel whatever range of emotions that come up – be it rage, envy, sadness, embarrassment. And identifying yourself with that stream of pain that is being released from your subconscious or body ( because a lot of emotional pain embeds itself in the body and often manifests itself in the form of some illness or ache), to the point where you feel helpless. 
When you feel that you need others to hear you or understand you or validate you – you’re implying that you feel less than. You’re saying about yourself, to yourself: “I’m weak and I can’t handle shit. I’m a failure and I can’t trust my intuition or thoughts. I need others to give me the green light before I can feel ok.”
And this becomes really problematic, not only for you but for those who might be pressured with such a mammoth task ( one you yourself gave up on). Pain is subjective and can’t be quantified. You’re the only one who experience what you are, and the only person who can truly understand your struggle. Pain isn’t some random affliction; it’s a most intimate one. It’s a soul and mind state of emergency because you’ve lost yourself in the outer world and forgotten about your inner. The pain is just an alarm, like a smoke signal to draw your attention to the real problem. Being hung up on the superficiality of who will validate you or who misunderstood you is like complaining about the loud noise  the smoke signal makes while your house is burning down with you in it!
I feel many people get stuck at the initial stage of facing and accepting the pain. They, including me, get so caught up in the causation and who did what, and neglect the responsibility they have towards themselves. Being a victim where you absolve yourself of responsibility might allow you to curl up like a ball and just sleep your life away, but it also robs you of your sense of aliveness.  
I’m not saying that you can’t feel helpless or like a victim. You absolutely can. But at the same time, keep in mind that after you’ve released what you need to release and after you’ve mourned and grieved – the journey continues.
When you don’t scapegoat others, you get to own your narrative. You get to decide what the new chapters are going to be about and most importantly, you’ll be emancipated from your past.

“Bring me the sunset in a cup.”

I’ve always been on the outside, looking in.

sunsset

As a child I had the mind of an adult, the austerity of a seasoned seaman. I’d ask why I was here, who I was, where does the sun disappear to when we sleep? You’re too young to understand, I’d be told. How could I be too young to understand the answer to a question I conjured on my own?
I’d return to my window seat in life , dejected, losing my gaze to an ever receding horizon, searching for the setting of the sun.

As an adult, I still sit in that window seat, answering my own questions with a childlike enthusiasm. I ask people questions that I know the answers to, not to tell them the answer but to point their gaze towards the horizon, to make them long for the unknown. You ask weird questions, I’m told. Live your life like everyone else and don’t bother yourself with pointless questions that’d get you nowhere. But how could they be pointless when they’ve helped me discover the very purpose of my life? How could they lead nowhere when it’s been the only vehicle that’s taken me everywhere in life?

I listen, understand, and stand with others. And although I cherish my solitude, I wish that for once, there’d be someone to sit beside me at that window seat, to watch the sun setting in the horizon so that I can know that my life has not been a mere dream.

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