Creating safety from fear only recreates fear, just like cutting a magnet in half doesn’t separate the north and south pole, but rather duplicates the north and south poles. Emotional reality, as opposed to physical reality, is a fractal and it’s highly volatile in that the observer has more power over it than what is being observed. Fear isn’t a reality until it’s treated and interacted with as a reality. When one acts in ways to avoid a potential run-in with one’s fear, that’s a sign that fear actually runs your life while making you believe that compulsive rationalization gives you some control.
That’s not to say that the feeling of fear is false. Feelings are neither right or wrong, they just are. And it’s usually in contending with feelings that we miss the mark. There’s a difference between allowing the feelings to flow, and to try to control them by cutting off the flow mentally.
Emotional reality states are neutral ; the unknown or the uncertain is neutral. It’s our latent beliefs that get projected on to the circumstances unfolding before us that then take shape and become an extension of the psyche. It’s the spaces in between events and triggers that create the dimensions of the reality we live.
We’re oriented to view the world as this cutthroat place of scarcity, a place void of divine order. And that’s an incredibly dismal existence to lead, not least because it’s constantly pitting you against your natural flow.
The only way to base life on love and hope is to trust Allaah with the jump scares, worst case scenarios, pitfalls, triggers, and whatever else an anxiety ridden mind can conjure. It’s to detach from a conditional existence that demands that things line up in a certain way for life to be redeemable. It’s to know that abundance is unconditional and the external reality has absolutely no bearing on it. Abundance, harmony, peace, alignment, fulfillment are strictly divine domains. They can’t be strong-armed or procured through hustle. They are only granted to the hopeful heart and surrendered mind.
In the verses below plays out a story about when, after the passing of Musa and Haarun calayhumasalaam, Banu Israel wanted a leader to finally enter Jerusalem. They expected someone from the elite, wealthy. But here comes someone with no obvious signs as to why he was made leader. Ignorantly they assumed that the physical reality is one of causality. To weed out the true ones for the army, they were tested for scarcity mentality by having to forego drinking from the cool waters of a stream. This, after a long and arduous trek that unquestionably left them parched. Here their heart was pitted against their logic ; would they be able to transcend a situation when the stakes were so high? Those who were able to refrain were ones whose hearts were ripe to receive strength and abundance from Allaah. And it became so, that when it became high time, they asked Allaah to pour on them patience like their companions who failed their tests poured the water.
الجزاء من جنس العمل
The reward is from the same nature as the deed.
وَقَالَ لَهُمْ نَبِيُّهُمْ إِنَّ اللَّهَ قَدْ بَعَثَ لَكُمْ طَالُوتَ مَلِكًا قَالُوا أَنَّىٰ يَكُونُ لَهُ الْمُلْكُ عَلَيْنَا وَنَحْنُ أَحَقُّ بِالْمُلْكِ مِنْهُ وَلَمْ يُؤْتَ سَعَةً مِّنَ الْمَالِ قَالَ إِنَّ اللَّهَ اصْطَفَاهُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَزَادَهُ بَسْطَةً فِي الْعِلْمِ وَالْجِسْمِ وَاللَّهُ يُؤْتِي مُلْكَهُ مَن يَشَاءُ وَاللَّهُ وَاسِعٌ عَلِيمٌ
And their Prophet (Samuel) said to them, “Indeed Allaah has appointed Talut (Saul) as a king over you.” They said, “How can he be a king over us when we are better fitted than him for the kingdom, and he has not been given enough wealth.” He said: “Verily, Allaah has chosen him above you and has increased him abundantly in knowledge and stature. And Allaah grants His Kingdom to whom He wills. And Allaah is All-Sufficient for His creatures’ needs, All-Knower.
وَقَالَ لَهُمْ نَبِيُّهُمْ إِنَّ آيَةَ مُلْكِهِ أَن يَأْتِيَكُمُ التَّابُوتُ فِيهِ سَكِينَةٌ مِّن رَّبِّكُمْ وَبَقِيَّةٌ مِّمَّا تَرَكَ آلُ مُوسَىٰ وَآلُ هَارُونَ تَحْمِلُهُ الْمَلَائِكَةُ إِنَّ فِي ذَٰلِكَ لَآيَةً لَّكُمْ إِن كُنتُم مُّؤْمِنِينَ
And their Prophet (Samuel) said to them: Verily! The sign of His Kingdom is that there shall come to you At-Taabut (a wooden box), wherein is sakeenah (peace and reassurance) from your Lord and a remnant of that which Muusa and Haarun left behind, carried by the angels. Verily, in this is a sign for you if you are indeed believers.
فَلَمَّا فَصَلَ طَالُوتُ بِالْجُنُودِ قَالَ إِنَّ اللَّهَ مُبْتَلِيكُم بِنَهَرٍ فَمَن شَرِبَ مِنْهُ فَلَيْسَ مِنِّي وَمَن لَّمْ يَطْعَمْهُ فَإِنَّهُ مِنِّي إِلَّا مَنِ اغْتَرَفَ غُرْفَةً بِيَدِهِ فَشَرِبُوا مِنْهُ إِلَّا قَلِيلًا مِّنْهُمْ فَلَمَّا جَاوَزَهُ هُوَ وَالَّذِينَ آمَنُوا مَعَهُ قَالُوا لَا طَاقَةَ لَنَا الْيَوْمَ بِجَالُوتَ وَجُنُودِهِ قَالَ الَّذِينَ يَظُنُّونَ أَنَّهُم مُّلَاقُو اللَّهِ كَم مِّن فِئَةٍ قَلِيلَةٍ غَلَبَتْ فِئَةً كَثِيرَةً بِإِذْنِ اللَّهِ وَاللَّهُ مَعَ الصَّابِرِينَ
Then when Talut set out with the army, he said: ”Verily! Allaah will try you by a river. So whoever drinks thereof, he is not of me, and whoever tastes it not, he is of me, except him who takes (thereof) in the hollow of his hand.“ Yet, they drank thereof, all, except a few of them. So when he had crossed it (the river), he and those who believed with him, they said: “We have no power this day against Jalut (Goliath) and his hosts.” But those who knew with certainty that they were to meet their Lord, said: “How often a small group overcame a mighty host by Allaah’s Leave?” And Allaah is with the patient ones.
وَلَمَّا بَرَزُوا لِجَالُوتَ وَجُنُودِهِ قَالُوا رَبَّنَا أَفْرِغْ عَلَيْنَا صَبْرًا وَثَبِّتْ أَقْدَامَنَا وَانصُرْنَا عَلَى الْقَوْمِ الْكَافِرِينَ
And when they advanced to meet Jalut and his forces, they invoked: “Our Lord! Pour forth on us patience, set our feet firm and make us victorious over the disbelieving people.
فَهَزَمُوهُم بِإِذْنِ اللَّهِ وَقَتَلَ دَاوُودُ جَالُوتَ وَآتَاهُ اللَّهُ الْمُلْكَ وَالْحِكْمَةَ وَعَلَّمَهُ مِمَّا يَشَاءُ وَلَوْلَا دَفْعُ اللَّهِ النَّاسَ بَعْضَهُم بِبَعْضٍ لَّفَسَدَتِ الْأَرْضُ وَلَٰكِنَّ اللَّهَ ذُو فَضْلٍ عَلَى الْعَالَمِينَ
So they routed them by Allaah’s Leave and Dawud killed Jalut , and Allaah gave him [Dawud] the kingdom and Al-Hikmah (Prophethood [lit. wisdom]), and taught him of that which He willed. And if Allaah did not check one set of people by means of another, the earth would indeed be full of mischief. But Allaah is full of Bounty to the ‘Alameen (mankind, jinns and all of cosmos).