daryeel iyo deganaansho

Daryeel iyo deganaansho means care and tranquility which perfectly encapsulates my experience last summer. The memories of hiking through an ancient forest and thinking about who must have climbed the same rock 2-3000 years ago engendered a lot of hope during winter. It’s crazy how a few weeks can have such an impact. Of course, it wasn’t because of the time and place, but it was as if everything in the universe conspired to allow me this priceless gift of an experience. Alhamdulillaah


summer of 2016 was the most magical and memorable time of my life


Found a cloud with the shape of Somalia!


Hiked a lot with my father, like old times.



 a waning moon

Cherrie, Molnet (outro)

Länge, länge, länge sen..

Tänder, andas, blåser sen ut igen

Ingen annan behövs jag har mig själv

Himlen känns närmare..


Går inte

Flyger iväg nu

Går inte

Jag måste högre

Där nere

Där är det kallt nu

Här uppe

Här hittar jag allt


Vad du är, så vacker härifrån

Ja du är, det vackraste som vandrat under moln

Så vacker härifrån

Ser de, ser de, ser de här uppifrån

Har planerat och medvetet tappat min telefon

Marken känns så långt bort härifrån

Jag kommer närmare


long, long, long ago
I light a cig, take a drag, and exhale again
No one else is needed, I have myself
The sky feels nearer

Flying away now
I have to go higher
Down there
Where it’s cold now
Up here
Is where I find everything

What you are, you look so beautiful from here
Yes you are, the most beautiful thing to walk beneath the clouds
So beautiful from here

Do they, do they, do they see from up here
I’ve planned and deliberately got rid of my phone
The ground feels so far away from here
I’m drawing closer








An Astronaut of a Different Universe



When I was a child, I was fascinated by space and my biggest dream was to become an astronomer or an astronaut. When I was 4, I remember circulating the coffee table and chanting to myself; ‘who am I-where did I come from- why am I here?’ And I visualized floating out into space and I abruptly stopped my weird ceremony because I was scared that I’d float so far into space that I wouldn’t come back.

A summer when I was 5, I woke up with the very strong determination to dig my way to China in the sandbox on the playground near our house. As soon as I got out, I rounded up my friends and told them about the mission. Half way through our excavation, a scary thought crossed my mind – what if we’d dig our way past China and fall through the other side of the earth into space?! Panicky, I told my fellow astronauts — I mean, friends, to abort the mission! I repeat, abort mission! Turn back!

I was adamant to explore space, until in third grade when mum told me about NASA (don’t ask me how she knew about NASA) and how unlikely it was for a black muslim kid to be accepted to their program. I was told to look for a more realistic profession. She had her heart in the right place, she didn’t want my hopes crushed beyond repair.

For a long while I’ve made sure to stay within the lines and tread carefully. I forgot why I had to stay within the lines, but I learnt that whatever that lay beyond the fence,it had to be feared…

As such I remained until I returned to who I was before the world told me who I wasn’t. The past few years have seen me explore the space outside the lines, and although the uncertainty that lay in the darkness was scary, it wasn’t half as scary as wasting life within the lines.

Today I came across a short video on the requirements of becoming an astronaut and how to apply, and today I wasn’t afraid of getting lost in space, like I was when I was 4, or falling through the earth, like I was out in the playground– I actually sat through the video, and toyed with the thought of wearing a spacesuit. Although I don’t qualify ( you gotto be an American), I feel that being able to go into the deepest recesses of my mind and not be deterred by the fear of getting lost in it is the realization of a childhood dream – being an astronaut of my mind, exploring my inner space, my soul that holds countless galaxies.

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