My hope is never in what my eyes see. Maybe that’s why Ya’qoub became blind with grief; his eyes became tired of hoping in a reality they couldn’t see. I don’t know how I know but I need to protect that inner knowing, even if I seem weird or far out. Even if I lose face or lose my mind, I mustn’t lose that inner knowing.
Pain forces us to look for love, and that’s something the ego tries to feign it doesn’t need because love doesn’t need anything and thus isn’t transactional. So it pretends others need it through what one does for others that garner appreciation or companionship. But anything built on transactions is conditional. And what’s conditional confines the spirit, and it’s these confines and mental structures created ad hoc that block the innate abundance of the cosmos that God has already perfected in creating. Pain then is often the spirit being fed up with being complacent with the lies of the ego and the lies of the world, and needs connection with the transpersonal. That’s what love is, transpersonal. It makes us transcend our ego and connect to others on a higher plane. Problem is that most want to be on the receiving end of that kind of transcendental and unconditional love whilst being entrenched in the comfort and predictability of the ego. When that doesn’t happen or when one’s unconscious blocks makes one susceptible to the manipulation of charlatans promising you a home delivery of heaven, people decry love and vulnerability and dismiss it as a sham.
No, you are a sham and a scam. You want to discover the existence of the cosmos and you want it to be within your comfort zone. Something has got to give. And you have got to start questioning your perception and narratives more often instead of cementing the world in your negative experiences and making the cosmos a fossil of your pain.
A love that survives and endures. A love that can weather through the storms of this world and isn’t drowned by the drenching rains that follow the evaporation of unspoken words. An ecosystem, not an echo chamber.
Retain your calmness. Don’t abandon your post in this moment. War is raging outside and anyone not firmly grounded in the pillar of love extending through the breath of life will be snatched and snuffed.
Pain is a disruption of emotional harmony (emotional balance). Resisting or repressing the pain adds more blockages and takes you farther away from internal homeostasis. The only way to dissolve this is by centering your focus in the heart through presence and relaxation, and the momentum of the flow of love that creates and upholds the homeostasis will return things to a balance. It’s an act of non-action which is so difficult to understand because it seems oversimplified and counterintuitive to what we know.
But it’s important to realize that love isn’t a human commodity. It’s divine providence and the only way to receive more is to feel more, because more feeling= a more open heart.