Surrender convention

Dikr is meditation that not only takes you out of the mental space but into your heart space. Its effect is instantaneous because encapsulated in the prophetic phrases is a space in which you can completely let go of the hypervigilance of being in a 3D world focused on survival, danger and scarcity. It allows you to become vulnerable without feeling threatened and to inhabit the unknown deep in you without feeling lost.

Dikr is feminine energy ; it’s Being, stillness, silencing thoughts, transcending ego, awareness, intuition, but above all LOVE.

One example :

لا إِلَهَ إِلا اللَّهُ وَحْدَهُ لا شَرِيكَ لَهُ لَهُ الْمُلْكُ وَلَهُ الْحَمْدُ وَهُوَ عَلَى كُلِّ شَيْءٍ قَدِيرٌ

There is no true deity but Allaah alone, no partners has He. His is all sovereignty and praise, and He is over all things potent

The heart longs to surrender and we often surrender it to our minds which confines and suffocates and treat it very harshly. Only Allaah has the abundance and transcends all limitations to give us the true confidence to let go of control. By reiterating this, we recalibrate ourselves to the divine reality and take back the balance from a hectic and frantic outer reality that can obscure the possibility of anything else.

It is by reminding ourselves of our humanity that we can receive the divine. But for as long as we’re frantically trying to conquer this space of surrender by constant doing and being overly steeped in masculine energy that overwhelms us, we are incapable of receiving harmony and love no matter how much we think we want it. The underlying identification with perfectionism and outcomes has with it a deep fear of losing yourself if you slow down.

فَلَمَّا جَآءَتْ قِيلَ أَهَٰكَذَا عَرْشُكِ قَالَتْ كَأَنَّهُۥ هُوَ وَأُوتِينَا ٱلْعِلْمَ مِن قَبْلِهَا وَكُنَّا مُسْلِمِينَ

So when she arrived, it was said [to her], “Is your throne like this?” She said, “[It is] as though it was it.” [Solomon said], “And we were given knowledge before her, and we have been Muslims [in submission to Allah]

وَصَدَّهَا مَا كَانَت تَّعْبُدُ مِن دُونِ ٱللَّهِ إِنَّهَا كَانَتْ مِن قَوْمٍ كَٰفِرِينَ

And that which she was worshipping other than Allah had averted her [from submission to Him]. Indeed, she was from a disbelieving people.

قِيلَ لَهَا ٱدْخُلِى ٱلصَّرْحَ فَلَمَّا رَأَتْهُ حَسِبَتْهُ لُجَّةً وَكَشَفَتْ عَن سَاقَيْهَا قَالَ إِنَّهُۥ صَرْحٌ مُّمَرَّدٌ مِّن قَوَارِيرَ قَالَتْ رَبِّ إِنِّى ظَلَمْتُ نَفْسِى وَأَسْلَمْتُ مَعَ سُلَيْمَٰنَ لِلَّهِ رَبِّ ٱلْعَٰلَمِينَ

It was said to her: “Enter As-Sarh” [(a glass surface with water underneath it) or a palace], but when she saw it, she thought it was a pool, and she (tucked up her clothes) uncovering her legs, Sulaiman (Solomon) said: “Verily, it is Sarh [(a glass surface with water underneath it) or a palace] paved smooth with slab of glass.” She said: “My Lord! Verily, I have wronged myself, and I submit (in Islam, together with Sulaiman (Solomon), to Allah, the Lord of the ‘Alamin (mankind, jinns and all that exists).”

[an-Naml:42-44]

Though she was very astute and intelligent, she had let her position and possessions and abilities cloud her from the inner space that would give her the right awareness. It wasn’t until she was met with something that exceeded far beyond any worldly structure that she decided to look inwardly. She had to reach a point where her thoughts and thinking ability gave out on her for her to tap into an inner knowing that has a far deeper and wider scope of perception than the mind can ever have.

And this is why I believe that as women, constantly being in positions that demand masculine energy is extremely detrimental to our well-being and it depletes our inner power. But that’s for another post.

Avoidance is a type of hiding

This video made me realize how deeply men hide. They hide behind tattoos, bodysculpting, gangs, violence, misleading words, humour, allegiances, prejudices, etc.

Women often demand that men be more transparent, communicate better, be more honest, vulnerable, etc. But I wonder how much of that is really genuine, and how much of it is rooted in a desire to not bear the burden of the thoughts that get triggered when faced with uncertainty? I’d surmise almost all of it is selfish.

Before you ask a man to show up as his true self, make sure you have the ability to create a space free of expectations, projections, your own fears and insecurities etc. Make sure it’s not a suit or a mould he’s stepping into. A role you want him to play so that you won’t have to deal with the thoughts that terrorize you in your solitude.

And take the time to differentiate and be honest with yourself about it. When we believe that others have what we’re deficient in, we place an unnecessary burden on them. A burden of entitlement and desperation. A desperation to flee the harsh atmosphere created by self-hating and self-erasing thoughts.

Not alone

Feeling safe without objects, without words, without mental images of a better time, is a dissolution of the illusion of control. It’s to let God in, completely. It’s to carry silence without breaking up with the moment. It’s to listen to what speaks without a language.

For Whom The Clock Ticks

Time is what the mind labels the flow of cosmic cycles. There was a time (pun not intended but unavoidable) when time and territories didn’t exist because people weren’t separate from the immediate natural environment they lived in. There was only this moment, and working in tandem with the diurnal flow and the shifts of the season. People lived where they lived, did what they could, put up with the inherent hardships or dangers of the land. They saw themselves as a part of a whole and had reverence for the vastness of the world around them.

It was only when man saw this coexistence as subservience and didn’t want to be ruled by the sun or the winds or God, that he plotted ways of breaking “free”. Of course, breaking up the divine reality never leads to freedom but I digress.

He started forming the phenomenon reality which was a map constructed by thoughts derived from the sensory input of the environment. As this gathered momentum, the split from nature happened and a corresponding internal separation of the subconscious (the nonverbal feminine energy) and the conscious ego ( the verbal masculine energy).

This shift was driven heavily by demonic entities who knew the implications of driving humans away from their existential backdrop. They were very calculated and invested in driving a wedge between the divine signs and consciousness, so that people would live in a Plato’s cave, entertained by shadows and never fathoming the existence of a world outside the cave.

soul waves ❤

Loneliness is when you’re alienated from yourself

Solitude carries a negative connotation because perhaps we associate confinement and death to it

We were alone in the womb, and we’ll be alone in the tomb

So perhaps we want to break out of our corporal shell and be free by following our impulses

Perhaps we think that as long as we avoid ourselves, we avoid death

As if death can only meet us when we’re conscious.

Or we erroneously believe that solitude entails isolation, and that we either belong to a group or we dwell in solitude.

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