The phenomenology of a racist world

You know, for those living in the shadow of the system, black people and other POC (I wonder if the distinction of a person according to their skin colour is a subconscious symbology to describe the shadow cast on them) they can’t describe or develop their own phenomenology because it’s so antithetical to how white people experience their world that it’s an existential threat. They hear, anti-whiteness.

The stability of their world DEPENDS on the repression of its shadow, therefore they feel implicated and the cost of that implication is too high. Because to see the experiences of black people is to acknowledge the illusion of the world you’ve planted your identity in. It calls into question EVERYTHING you’re about. It starts to feel like disintegration- it’s not. It’s just an integration into WHAT IS. A collapse of dissociation.

You can see this mechanism in play when climate change is mentioned – the denial that the unsustainable lifestyle of dissociation is causing active harm, then the invalidation of earth itself (it’s getting cooler, it’s always been this way, it’ll course correct on its own)

Destruction is seductive

A success that excludes the whole isn’t a success. A solution that only remedies a part isn’t a solution. What’s holistic creates a timeless and unshakeable foundation. What’s compartmentalized creates agitation and furore in the suppressed and bandaided part that in time will erupt in monstrosity. Growth that’s out of tune and pace with the whole is cancerous. A cancer that soon will destroy the whole.

At this point it ought to be evident that personal success that’s disconnected from the concern of the collective is just another landfill, another Great Pacific garbage patch. It’s ironic that our contribution and gratitude to this planet is physical and emotional refuse.

The worst people are…

Those who were once lost and disconnected from the divine and their own soul, but found God. Once they were gifted that stability, they thought the stability was a result of some mental gymnastics that they finally succeeded at, and they look to their past self, and all who resemble them, with disgust. To them, feeling lost is a sign of weakness and moral decay and finding God is a function of thinking right. They feel entitled to guidance and spiritual rewards by virtue of their commitment and sacrifice.

Those who were once depressed and suffering. Once their situation changed, they made depression and the feeling of powerlessness something to abhor and control. They lack empathy and understanding for anyone going through something similar and feel that there’s nothing else to it but to pull yourself up and strong-arm your way to wellness. They view the successful in life to be those least affected by emotional turbulence.

Those who once were destitute and poor, but got enriched. Now they view their wealth as strictly a matter of work ethics and a strong drive. They feel that poor people are weak and don’t deserve help because they aren’t trying hard enough.

All of these people are prime examples of how true change can’t come about without unconditional acceptance of whatever you’re tested with. They not only missed out on the benefits in their previous trials, but they have lost something greater ; their humanity. They are projecting on others and the world how they view their own self. They will be punished by their own harshness and will forfeit Allaah’s Mercy because they denied themselves and others that mercy.

فَإِذَا مَسَّ الْإِنسَانَ ضُرٌّ دَعَانَا ثُمَّ إِذَا خَوَّلْنَاهُ نِعْمَةً مِّنَّا قَالَ إِنَّمَا أُوتِيتُهُ عَلَىٰ عِلْمٍ بَلْ هِيَ فِتْنَةٌ وَلَكِنَّ أَكْثَرَهُمْ لَا يَعْلَمُونَ

When harm touches man, he calls to Us (for help), then when We have (rescued him from that harm and) changed it into a favour from Us, he says: “Only because of knowledge (that I possess) I obtained it.” Nay, it is only a trial, but most of them know not!

(Az-Zumar :49)

فزت و رب الكعبة

Deconstructing and dismantling the system ain’t your biznez. Search for your blocks to the truth, ground yourself in love in midst of chaos, and manifest what’s in your heart not your mind. Leave it to Allaah to erase these institutions and systems you think are so powerful. They aren’t. They just seem so because of the weakness in us. We done lost our ways and became alienated from the pain that would call us to change and have compassion. So the world will be messed up for as long as people aren’t getting the lesson. Once the lesson is understood and integrated by even a handful of people, that’ll mark the tipping point. Empaths have the precocious knack to be the wayshowers and builders of new paradigms way before the old has even crumbled.

The point is in the pain, and it’s not for anyone to try to bypass the pain by punishing those who were the means for it. That is giving power to one who doesn’t have that kind of power and though it may soothe the ego to clapback or take them down, it only does further damage to the afflicted one.

You sidestepped your turf by living a life that doesn’t resonate with you and then you’re surprised when you end up in the wrong neighbourhood? You don’t choose nor have control over who you come across or what happens in the path you tread. But you absolutely have control over the path you take. We’re currently gentrifying the neighbourhoods of evil. You may strong-arm a politician here or influence a bill there, but you’re still coming home to the same electromagnetic field emitting from your heart. Even if your intention is to clean out the gutter, your focus is still in the gutter.

وَأَوْرَثْنَا الْقَوْمَ الَّذِينَ كَانُوا يُسْتَضْعَفُونَ مَشَارِقَ الْأَرْضِ وَمَغَارِبَهَا الَّتِي بَارَكْنَا فِيهَا وَتَمَّتْ كَلِمَتُ رَبِّكَ الْحُسْنَىٰ عَلَىٰ بَنِي إِسْرَائِيلَ بِمَا صَبَرُوا وَدَمَّرْنَا مَا كَانَ يَصْنَعُ فِرْعَوْنُ وَقَوْمُهُ وَمَا كَانُوا يَعْرِشُونَ

And We made the people who were considered weak to inherit the eastern parts of the land and the western parts thereof which We have blessed. And the fair Word of your Lord was fulfilled for the Children of Israel, because of their endurance. And We destroyed completely all the great works and buildings which Fir’aun (Pharaoh) and his people erected.

(Al-A’raf 7:137)

A spiritual famine

The good things in life are for soothing emotional distress and balancing out emotions. But if you’re not vulnerable, if your perception of reality is such that emotions are a terrible inconvenience then instead of abundance you’ll get hedonism, and instead of healing you’ll get greed and hoarding. Your soul is blocked from digesting the experiences because your ego is ravenous.

One side of the world is suffering from lack and the other is suffering from surplus and frustrated egos.

When everything seems fine and you need to go out of your way to find a reason for your misery, you know something is seriously amiss.

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