Rediscovering Ramadaan#11

One of my biggest pet peeve is how many Muslims view Islaam as something they are a passive audience to, and see it as a one-way interaction with those who display outward piety and knowledge.

To absolve themselves of their guilt of being commitment phobic with Allaah, hierarchies have been enforced where those who practice the deen -which shouldn’t be a thing since all Muslims are required to practice the obligatory baseline –  are deemed holy, which bears eerie resemblance to the Christian construct of priesthood.

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Rediscovering Ramadaan#9

The rumbles of your hungry stomach
Your parched tongue
The headache that is ominously spreading around your head like a dark rain cloud
The tempations firing off in your weary head, albeit slower than usual

While others can see your physical body, only Allaah can see your soul.
The soul often gets lost in the dictatorship of the ego, the desperate need for approval, immediate gratifications.
And thus is lost the connection with Allaah.
The body might very well be busy in rukuuc and sujuud and Qur’aan recitation and Cumra, but if the soul is silent?
Whatever isn’t done for the sake of Allaah, never lasts. Because after everything perishes, only Allaah will remain, the King of Kings.

Ramadaan is a time of solitude, stillness. A time to recalibrate the soul. To start anew.

It’s a reminder that just like no one can feel your hunger, no one can feel your pain or your yearnings or your hopes or your joy.
Only Allaah truly knows you in the things that matter. He sees who you are behind your mask.

Which is why hypocrisy is worse than blatant kufr. Even minor hypocrisy like doing things like praying taraweeh or paying sadaqa so that you can get a good standing with the people, or hold back from something you wanted to do because you’re afraid of what people would say.
(This is how Fudayl ibn Ciyaad defined ikhlaas btw)
You are more concerned with what people will think than what Allaah knows of you. That is the antithesis of Tawheed.

And yet, Allaah never tires of calling us back from our self-destruction to our self-actualization.


Rediscovering Ramadaan#7

I’m a barely-there Muslim. I try hard to not do ANYTHING if it doesn’t come from my heart -even in trivial matters like sending someone a message or writing on a topic. This goes for my deen and because I don’t have much in my heart, my practices rarely exceed the waajibaat ( obligatory rituals). 
After 8 or so years of hard-core practicing rooted in perfectionism and chronic cynicism of myself – I crashed and burned. I was on the verge of disbelief. It’s a miracle, nothing short of a miracle that I have love still for Allaah. Alxamdulillaah.

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Rediscovering Ramadaan#6

When we pray istikhaara for a certain prospect, a new job, a potential spouse, a drastic change, we envision that if this thing is good then we’ll get it, and if it’s not good we won’t get it. And if it happens that we feel discouraged after our istikhaara, we conclude that the job or person was bad news basically.

And this is from a very myopic and egocentric pov. Not in a bad way, I mean us humans ARE innately egocentric. But it’s very simplistic.

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Rediscovering Ramadaan#5

When misogyny rears one of its many heads

Ya hear that? The sound that went ‘pop’ in your head, the neurons coming to a screeching halt, your breath held in a nanosecond longer when you read ‘misogyny’?

I’m not going to bash anyone. Don’t worry.

I bash everyone 😠😈

Just kidding 😝

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Rediscovering Ramadaan#4


It’s never as strong as it is in Ramadaan. This need to shoot down the traits or actions in one is denying within oneself, in others. Projecting on others. Subconsciously looking down on the ‘heathens’ the ‘ramadaan tourists’. Grilling people with questions that are often communicated unspoken through glares and vague comments.

Why aren’t you reading more Qur’aan?
Why aren’t you going to taraweeh?
Why did you only pray 6 raka’aat?
Why are you watching TV?
Why are you taking pictures of your iftar when there are starving and poor people??

Sharp tones, clenched jaws, squinting eyes. You would believe that the wrong reply would have this person fly into a fight.

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Rediscovering Ramadaan#3

ذَٰلِكَ الْكِتَابُ لَا رَيْبَ ۛ فِيهِ ۛ هُدًى لِّلْمُتَّقِينَ

This is the Book (the Qur’ân), whereof there is no doubt, a guidance to those who are Al-Muttaqûn [the pious and righteous person

(Al-baqarah 2:2)

Every word in the Qur’aan bears profound meanings and is not random or spontaneous. Since this is the month when the Qur’aan came down and the month where Allaah says ( in the translation)

O you who believe! Observing As-Saum (the fasting) is prescribed for you as it was prescribed for those before you, that you may become Al-Muttaqûn (the pious)

(Al-baqarah 2:183)

How do these ayat link? How does one gain taqwa through this month?  And what exactly is taqwa?  And does taqwa precede guidance?

Taqwa is a difficult word to translate to English. Many translate it to mean fearing Allaah, but that is missing the point by a huge margin. Fearing Allaah is a byproduct of taqwa but the meaning is greater than that. The most apt translation that I can think of is mindfulness. Mindfulness is a state of mind where the individual is removed from one’s feelings, thoughts and external events. Where the individual has an internal island protecting oneself from everything that Allaah dislikes.

So having taqwa is the foundation for receiving guidance.

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