Rediscovering Ramadaan #14

A kind of letting go of worldly tethers, this month of Ramadaan is.   A soul previously taxed by attachments and whimsical restlessness is given space to float in the metaphysical realm where the souls meet the divine in ethereal wonders.

A month where the mental noise of the mind is brought down a few notches, and the distractions of the dunya is relegated to the background.

A month that acts as an invitation to return to the portal of one’s soul and not be so caught up in what one desires and fantasizes of. To realize that the contentment sought in the approval of people and fame and money is right here, right now.
A contentment that lies in remaining still and reconnecting with one’s essence.

And because such a stillness is so encompassing, the ego finds it frightening to let one connect to it, for fear of missing out on the pursuits and obsessions that one is convinced would satiate them.

In a world that is so fast and instant, the only way to truly self-actualize and find your purpose is by slowing down to become grounded in the eternal.

يا أيتها النفس المطمئنة *
ارجعي إلى ربك راضية مرضية*
فادخلي في عبادي*
وادخلي جنتي *

(It will be said to the pious):
“O (you) the one in (complete) rest and satisfaction!*
“Come back to your Lord, Well-pleased (yourself) and well-pleasing unto Him! *
Enter you, then, among My honoured slaves,*
And enter you My Paradise!*

(al-Fajr 89:27-30)

Rediscovering Ramadaan#13

“Indeed, this religion is strong and well-established so enter into it deeply yet do so
gently. And do not cause the worship of your Lord to become hateful to you. For the
one who traverses it harshly will neither reach (his goal) nor will it spare anyone. So do actions like a person who thinks he will never die, and be cautious like a person
who fears he will die tomorrow.”
[Sunan al-Bayhaqi al-Kubra 3/19] *

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Rediscovering Ramadaan#11

One of my biggest pet peeve is how many Muslims view Islaam as something they are a passive audience to, and see it as a one-way interaction with those who display outward piety and knowledge.

To absolve themselves of their guilt of being commitment phobic with Allaah, hierarchies have been enforced where those who practice the deen -which shouldn’t be a thing since all Muslims are required to practice the obligatory baseline –  are deemed holy, which bears eerie resemblance to the Christian construct of priesthood.

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Rediscovering Ramadaan#9

The rumbles of your hungry stomach
Your parched tongue
The headache that is ominously spreading around your head like a dark rain cloud
The tempations firing off in your weary head, albeit slower than usual

While others can see your physical body, only Allaah can see your soul.
The soul often gets lost in the dictatorship of the ego, the desperate need for approval, immediate gratifications.
And thus is lost the connection with Allaah.
The body might very well be busy in rukuuc and sujuud and Qur’aan recitation and Cumra, but if the soul is silent?
Whatever isn’t done for the sake of Allaah, never lasts. Because after everything perishes, only Allaah will remain, the King of Kings.

Ramadaan is a time of solitude, stillness. A time to recalibrate the soul. To start anew.

It’s a reminder that just like no one can feel your hunger, no one can feel your pain or your yearnings or your hopes or your joy.
Only Allaah truly knows you in the things that matter. He sees who you are behind your mask.

Which is why hypocrisy is worse than blatant kufr. Even minor hypocrisy like doing things like praying taraweeh or paying sadaqa so that you can get a good standing with the people, or hold back from something you wanted to do because you’re afraid of what people would say.
(This is how Fudayl ibn Ciyaad defined ikhlaas btw)
You are more concerned with what people will think than what Allaah knows of you. That is the antithesis of Tawheed.

And yet, Allaah never tires of calling us back from our self-destruction to our self-actualization.


Rediscovering Ramadaan#7

I’m a barely-there Muslim. I try hard to not do ANYTHING if it doesn’t come from my heart -even in trivial matters like sending someone a message or writing on a topic. This goes for my deen and because I don’t have much in my heart, my practices rarely exceed the waajibaat ( obligatory rituals). 
After 8 or so years of hard-core practicing rooted in perfectionism and chronic cynicism of myself – I crashed and burned. I was on the verge of disbelief. It’s a miracle, nothing short of a miracle that I have love still for Allaah. Alxamdulillaah.

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