12 dimensional 

​Jarryd James, Do You Remember 





When did we lose our way?


Easier to let it go (mmm…)
So many can’t tell anybody
Harder to let you know

Call me when you’ve made up your mind but you won’t
Caught up in the way that you played my heart
Only love could ever hit this hard

Oh, don’t be scared about it
Don’t forget it was real
Do you remember the way it made you feel?
Do you remember the things it let you feel?

How do I make you stay
When it’s easier to let you go?
Nobody knows what we know about it
No one needs to know

Call me when you’ve made up your mind but you won’t
Caught up in a way that you played my heart
Only love could ever hit this hard

Oh, don’t be scared about it
Don’t forget it was real
Do you remember the way it made you feel?
Do you remember the things it let you feel?

When you love to your limit
You gave all you’re given
Who you gonna pray to when you’re there?
Will you find out that there ain’t no other love
No other love for you?

Oh, don’t be scared about it
Don’t forget it was real
Do you remember the way it made you feel?
Do you remember the things it let you feel?

where the winds are headed

Validation is rizq

Love is rizq

Self-awareness is rizq

Courage is rizq

Success is rizq

Stability is rizq

Confidence is rizq

                                     ***

The key to receiving is to realize that everything in existence is His, and whatever He grants you no one can hold back. All the hearts are between His fingers, and He holds everyone by their foreheads. He can make your worst enemy subservient to you. Therefore, do not attribute that divine power to others or give yourself undue importance in that somehow you’re innately undeserving. What that would entail is that Allaah created you with a fixed burden and that’s simply not His M.O. Whatever shortcomings we have is only to act as catalyst for growth. Internalizing things based on how others mistreated you is to deface your soul. 

If anything, you experience unloving people to know that that’s wrong because it offends the soul. Allaah is showing you through contrast in order for you to learn. 
The channel to receiving all you need is to be grateful. Gratitude is an antidote to resentment, arrogance, entitlement, shame. It connotes an expectation of love and anticipation of good. It’s a recognition of the divine gifts you pine for. 
If you experience a lack, or mistreatment or emotional pain, it’s not because there’s something wrong with you. It’s not because you haven’t done enough to earn love because you had your rizq assigned before you were born. Your only purpose is to find and embody enlightenment, which is ibaadah of Allaah. He wants you to feel loved, to feel significant, to feel empowered, to feel free, to feel able because that’s what He created you for! He didn’t create you to be stagnant. He created you to discover and share your gifts, in gratitude for receiving them. The taxation for blessings is to share them. And He wishes ease for us, not hardship. 
Whatever we feel that constricts our hearts or burdens us is a sign that we’re not aligned with our truth. We’re living out the scripts of those who can’t give us what we need or deprive us. People just dole out credits on divine gifts, claiming that if you sign the dotted line you’d receive validation but it’s a scam. You know that. You know that people only want to control and overpower and that’s why they seduce you with validation and love. 

Whatever you experience on the outside is only meant to draw attention to the places within you that need remedying. It’s a call to purify your soul and remove the blocks. Don’t add fuel to the fire by internalizing that lesson as further proof of your doom of misery and unlovability. 

فَتَقَبَّلَهَا رَبُّهَا بِقَبُولٍ حَسَنٍ وَأَنْبَتَهَا نَبَاتًا حَسَنًا وَكَفَّلَهَا زَكَرِيَّا  كُلَّمَا دَخَلَ عَلَيْهَا زَكَرِيَّا الْمِحْرَابَ وَجَدَعِنْدَهَا رِزْقًا قَالَ يَا مَرْيَمُ أَنَّىٰ لَكِ هَٰذَا قَالَتْ هُوَ مِنْ عِنْدِ اللَّهِ إِنَّ اللَّهَ يَرْزُقُ مَنْ يَشَاءُ بِغَيْرِ حِسَابٍ

So her Lord accepted her with goodly acceptance. He made her grow in a good manner and put her under the care of Zakariya. Every time he entered Al-Mihrab to (visit) her , he found her supplied with sustenance. He said: “O Maryam (Mary)! From where have you got this?” She said, “This is from Allaah.” Verily, Allaah Provides sustenance to whom He wills, without limit.” 

(Aali Imran 3:37) 

لِيَجْزِيَهُمُ اللَّهُ أَحْسَنَ مَا عَمِلُوا وَيَزِيدَهُمْ مِنْ فَضْلِهِ  وَاللَّهُ يَرْزُقُ مَنْ يَشَاءُ بِغَيْرِ حِسَابٍ 



That Allaah may reward them according to the best of their deeds, and add even more for them out of His Grace. And Allaah Provides without measure to whom He wills.

(An-Nur 24:38) 

قُلْ إِنَّ رَبِّي يَبْسُطُ الرِّزْقَ لِمَن يَشَاءُ مِنْ عِبَادِهِ وَيَقْدِرُ لَهُ  وَمَا أَنفَقْتُم مِّن شَيْءٍ فَهُوَ يُخْلِفُهُ  وَهُوَ خَيْرُ الرَّازِقِينَ



Say: “Truly, my Lord enlarges the provision for whom He wills of His slaves, and (also) restricts (it) for him, and whatsoever you spend of anything (in Allaah’s Cause), He will replace it. And He is the Best of Providers.” 

(Saba’ 34:39) 

Narnia 2.0

Small and hidden is the door that leads inward, and the entrance is barred by countless prejudices, mistaken assumptions, and fears. Always one wishes to hear of grand political and economic schemes, the very things that have landed every nation in a morass. 

Therefore it sounds grotesque when anyone speaks of hidden doors, dreams, and a world within. What has this vapid idealism got to do with gigantic economic programmes, with the so-called problems of reality?
But I speak not to nations, only to the individual few, for whom it goes without saying that cultural values do not drop down like manna from heaven, but are created by the hands of individuals. If things go wrong in the world, this is because something is wrong with the individual, because something is wrong with me. 

Therefore, if I am sensible, I shall put myself right first. For this I need—because outside authority no longer means anything to me—a knowledge of the innermost foundations of my being, in order that I may base myself firmly on the eternal facts of the human psyche.” 

C.G. Jung, The Meaning of Psychology for Modern Man

I slam phobias

​Whilst the rise in islamophobic violence is disconcerting, this is not the time to indulge hysteria. Violence is something we’re blessed not to witness on a consistent basis in the West. People in Somalia, Yemen, Congo, Palestine, Syria, Venezuela, Myanmar can’t say the same. Does our distress impact us more than their distress impacts them? Yes, but only because of our perception.
I understand that what I’m proposing is antithetical to the lulling affirmations floating around on social media, but hear me out when I say that these incidents are wake-up calls. This is not the time to sleep.

This is a time for expansion, not contraction.
This is a time for idealism, not ideologies.
This is a time for transcending evil, not resisting it.
This is a time for bold hope, not defiant despair.

These are isolated incidents. Please don’t spread hysteria by making it seem like every Muslim is a marked person. That is not only false, but it’s anti-Islaamic to spread despair. That’s not the ethos of our religion. We believe that nothing happens except by the permission of Allaah and that everyone was born with a limited time on earth, according to His perfect wisdom. No one will escape what has been decreed for them. No one. So to inspire fear won’t keep death at bay, only joy.
Furthermore, the prophet sallAllaahu alayhi wasallam has taught us that these times will come and he has taught us to reflect on ourselves when tragedies strike.
We’ve been given heads up so as to find solace in patience, knowing that this world was nothing but a test. Whether in prosperity or adversity, we’re always being tested.
Falling into despair and lashing out at non-Muslims, blaming them as a collective and wanting their sympathy, is pathetic. They didn’t cause this. This is a test from Allaah. They are merely the means through which we’re tested. We’ve abandoned ourselves and practicing the truth of Islaam. People are either using it as a cover for their totalitarianism or being nihilistic about it.
The world needs Muslims to wake tf up. We’re being affected by the same evil that affects those oppressed and undermined elsewhere: the degradation of humanity and loss of the empathetic bond that tie us all. Our existence isn’t atomized; our apathy has returned to haunt us. For 16 years, the West led by the US has been terrorizing the world and it’s only now that we’re realizing that a monster doesn’t have loyalty; its tyranny will be extended to the poor and minorities. It will be extended to blacks and refugees and the working class. Don’t you see? It’s come full circle, and all the while we trusted that they’d keep us safe. But alas, they were saving the best for last.

So, check yourselves. You have a duty towards yourself: to not despair, towards Allaah: to be cognizant of the fact that most of the time we enjoy stability and peace, and towards others: to not take out your anger or frustration on them.

إِنَّمَا ذَٰلِكُمُ الشَّيْطَانُ يُخَوِّفُ أَوْلِيَاءَهُ فَلَا تَخَافُوهُمْ وَخَافُونِ إِن كُنتُم مُّؤْمِنِينَ

{It is only Shaitaan (Satan) that suggests to you the fear of his Auliyaa [supporters and friends] so fear them not, but fear Me, if you are (true) believers. }
(Aali Imran 3:175)

 

مَّا كَانَ اللَّهُ لِيَذَرَ الْمُؤْمِنِينَ عَلَىٰ مَا أَنتُمْ عَلَيْهِ حَتَّىٰ يَمِيزَ الْخَبِيثَ مِنَ الطَّيِّبِ وَمَا كَانَ اللَّهُ لِيُطْلِعَكُمْ عَلَى الْغَيْبِ وَلَٰكِنَّ اللَّهَ يَجْتَبِي مِن رُّسُلِهِ مَن يَشَاءُ فَآمِنُوا بِاللَّهِ وَرُسُلِهِ ۚ وَإِن تُؤْمِنُوا وَتَتَّقُوا فَلَكُمْ أَجْرٌ عَظِيمٌ

{Allaah will not leave the believers in the state in which you are now, until He distinguishes the wicked from the good. Nor will Allaah disclose to you the secrets of the Ghaib (unseen), but Allaah chooses of His Messengers whom He pleases. So believe in Allaah and His Messengers. And if you believe and fear Allaah, then for you there is a great reward. }
(Aali Imran 3:179)

أَوَلَمَّا أَصَابَتْكُم مُّصِيبَةٌ قَدْ أَصَبْتُم مِّثْلَيْهَا قُلْتُمْ أَنَّىٰ هَٰذَا قُلْ هُوَ مِنْ عِندِ أَنفُسِكُمْ ۗ إِنَّ اللَّهَ عَلَىٰ كُلِّ شَيْءٍ قَدِيرٌ

{(What is the matter with you?) When a single disaster smites you, although you smote (your enemies) with one twice as great, you say: “From where does this come to us?” Say (to them), “It is from yourselves (because of your evil deeds).” And Allaah has power over all things.}
(Aali Imran 3:165)

إِن يَنصُرْكُمُ اللَّهُ فَلَا غَالِبَ لَكُمْ وَإِن يَخْذُلْكُمْ فَمَن ذَا الَّذِي يَنصُرُكُم مِّن بَعْدِهِ وَعَلَى اللَّهِ فَلْيَتَوَكَّلِ الْمُؤْمِنُونَ

{If Allaah helps you, none can overcome you; and if He forsakes you, who is there after Him that can help you? And in Allaah (Alone) let believers put their trust. }
(Aali Imran 3:160)

وَلَئِن قُتِلْتُمْ فِي سَبِيلِ اللَّهِ أَوْ مُتُّمْ لَمَغْفِرَةٌ مِّنَ اللَّهِ وَرَحْمَةٌ خَيْرٌ مِّمَّا يَجْمَعُونَ

{And if you are killed or die in the Way of Allaah, forgiveness and mercy from Allaah are far better than all that they amass (of worldly wealths, etc.).}
(Aali Imran 3:157)

 

وَلَئِن مُّتُّمْ أَوْ قُتِلْتُمْ لَإِلَى اللَّهِ تُحْشَرُونَ

{And whether you die, or are killed, verily, unto Allaah you shall be gathered. }
(Aali Imran 3:158)

وَلَا تَهِنُوا وَلَا تَحْزَنُوا وَأَنتُمُ الْأَعْلَوْنَ إِن كُنتُم مُّؤْمِنِينَ

{So do not become weak (against your enemy), nor be sad, and you will be superior (in victory) if you are indeed (true) believers.}
(Aali Imran 3:139)

 

أَمْ حَسِبْتُمْ أَن تَدْخُلُوا الْجَنَّةَ وَلَمَّا يَأْتِكُم مَّثَلُ الَّذِينَ خَلَوْا مِن قَبْلِكُم ۖ مَّسَّتْهُمُ الْبَأْسَاءُ وَالضَّرَّاءُ وَزُلْزِلُوا حَتَّىٰ يَقُولَ الرَّسُولُ وَالَّذِينَ آمَنُوا مَعَهُ مَتَىٰ نَصْرُ اللَّهِ أَلَا إِنَّ نَصْرَ اللَّهِ قَرِيبٌ

{Or think you that you will enter Paradise without such (trials) as came to those who passed away before you? They were afflicted with severe poverty and ailments and were so shaken that even the Messenger and those who believed along with him said, “When (will come) the Help of Allaah?” Yes! Certainly, the Help of Allaah is near! }

(Al-Baqarah 2:214)

terra incognita

I’ll stand firm awaiting your return
My life is art
A monument of my honesty
A manifestation of my trust

In the blank pages and vast spaces in between

It’s a silent protest
my life is,,-
A demonstration of the discarded pieces that didn’t fit into the frame of yesterday’s world
A reconciliation of paradoxes and contrasts

I’m a stream gushing through caverns amidst the shifting seasons
I’m letting Allaah show different facets of me like the phases of the moon

When you let go, you let in everything
What you need you possess
Rejecting parts of you is rejecting Allaah’s blessings
And when those parts come up to the surface, clamouring for life you run away
You run away from yourself
And into the clutches of what you covet
When your grip weakens, why you panicking, screaming bloody murder?

I’m not going to deny myself
I’m not going to attach myself to what isn’t of me
In honouring myself, I honour Allaah’s wisdom in creating me
And that’s why I know my deepest powers are rooted in my insecurities
My beauty entangled with my flaws
I’m not day or night, I’m all of time, all the time
My essence escapes my cognition

 

point of no surrender

​​I know you think that I shouldn’t still love you

Or tell you that

But if I didn’t say it, well I’d still have felt it

Where’s the sense in that?


I promise I’m not trying to make your life harder

Or return to where we were


I will go down with this ship

And I won’t put my hands up and surrender

There will be no white flag above my door

I’m in love and always will be


– Dido, White flag

oak tree

He’s the duaas I didn’t dare make 

He’s the words that escape me

He’s the feelings that portray me

He’s all my feel-good memories melted together

He’s the taste of October

He’s what turquoise would sound like 

He gives my soul a home

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