What are the odds

When you seek something you’ll be tested with all the blocks you hold against it.

If you seek guidance, you’ll be tested with feeling really lost.

If you seek love, you’ll be tested with feeling misunderstood or lonely.

If you seek joy, you’ll be tested with depression.

If you seek stability, you’ll be tested with chaos.

If you seek truth, you’ll be tested with confusion.

If you seek peace, you’ll be tested with conflicts and turmoil.

If you seek fulfillment, you’ll be tested with frustration and being stuck.

By keeping your focus on what your heart seeks you’ll be forced to endure the tension that comes from being present to, and aware of unwanted circumstances. That tension becomes the hermetic seal that facilitates a spiritual alchemical transmutation. The glo up may sting a bit, but best believe it’s in the pipelines.

Targeted Individuals

I’ve seen their videos on YouTube and while it may have been tempting to dismiss it as psychosis or schizophrenia, I tried to have empathy and to at least hear them out. Whatever it is, they aren’t faking it. Their agony and fear is very real. I realized they must be possessed and/or stalked by demonic entities that are interdimensional and therefore can interfere with thoughts and feelings. Also, they could control their minds and of course they’d turn the individual’s focus outwardly to evade detection, while also setting the individual up for invalidation and dismissal, to further fragment their ( i.e. individual) grasp on reality.

I have a hard time believing that their efforts (T. I.) and theories and experiences are random byproducts of a malfunctioning brain. I think dimensions are leaking through and blending so that they lose grounding in their bodies and in this reality.

Also, I’ve noticed an immense surge in the interest of the occult and their symbology in the last 2 years, as well as the machinations of a deep state that operates by masonic codes, orchestrating false flags and such. I think it’s a ploy to distract. I genuinely believe these convincing conspiracies are the pied piper meant to lure people away from remaining grounded and centered in their awareness, whilst convinced that the rabbit holes they’re going into is enlightenment.

It’s all unbeneficial knowledge that only causes imbalance and overwhelms the person. It’s not necessary to know everything that’s happening behind closed doors and it’s not necessary to predict the future in order to remain safe. You remain secure by being present in your heart and paying attention to your feelings and not your thoughts. Your thoughts can be interfered with so easily, but that’s not the case with your heart. The more you remain present and feeling into everything that arises within you, the more your energy is safeguarded. But when you go down rabbit holes and follow leads that pop into your thought stream, you’re leaking and hemorrhaging your life energy. You’re at risk of self-fragmentation and you’re opening yourself up for spiritual attacks and mental invasions by negative forces, if only the manipulation of toxic people.

Connect to the outside reality through God. That’s how you stay protected and whole at all times. He knows what you can’t see and nothing escapes His watchful eye and nothing occurs that doesn’t have a higher purpose. Surrender your mind to Him. And don’t accept anything that hasn’t been brought to you by Him. Don’t pursue what makes you uneasy. Don’t.


All of societal convention and norm is based on 2 things : obedience and profit.

Obedience : To bridle and suppress your inner authority – emotions – so that you have no choice but to surrender to outer authority in order to escape existential chaos.

Profit : A return on investment on anything you’re given. That is, nothing is unconditional. This is used as bait-and-switch mindgame where you’re lured in by apparent incentives and then shackled by guilt and fear.

It’s an indenture to keep you trapped in the system of lack until you’re old, when most of your life force has been usurped by others.

This can be microcosmic ; parent-child relationship, student-teacher, etc. Or macrocosmic ; citizen-government, employee-employer.

The devil is in the details

I realized that I’ve always gotten the short end of the stick in my general interactions and relationships with people because I put them to the task of dividing the stick, thinking they would do me justice. I let them dictate who I was by what I did, thinking they would be fair and just. I really did. I was taught this, that people were objective witnesses of me and if I didn’t get the desired validation it’s because I wasn’t worthy of it.

It’s not easy to find your way out of social conditioning, to find the crack in the simulation to realize it’s not really you and that the system isn’t all that it’s cracked up to be. In fairness, we’re extremely rudimentary and limited as humans. We know more about the external world than the internal ; the psyche. So we’re bound to project everything outwards and have that be the be all, end all. Of course, there will be those who manipulate this blindspot to their favour.

Man down.

The whole Tina Knowles and Richard Lawson debacle where people were saying she emasculated him and you shouldn’t disrespect your man, makes me so uncomfortable.

A man should be and feel respected, supported and appreciated. However this shouldn’t come at the expense of self-censorship or monitoring oneself to not trigger any uncomfortable reactions in him. A woman isn’t the custodian of a man’s feelings.

A woman isn’t the custodian of a man’s feelings

Halllooowww? Can you hear me? A man who feels emasculated by a woman’s self-expression is immature and entitled af! Are people seriously suggesting that a woman bow down to his ego? Yo, this is so whack especially because I hate men like that. They disgust me. For real. I would never ever ever marry a man who is that fragile and who I have to coddle and hold myself back just in case. Let him talk!!

Men need to learn to communicate instead of relying on women picking up on their cues and emotional needs

And women are the maintainers of the status quo precisely through this dynamic of keeping a man comfortable where he is. Men need to learn to own their emotions, to own their space, to express their truths, to cut off toxic women who leech on them, to enforce boundaries, to self-regulate, to give up the external glory for inner stability and transcendental meaning. To find an outlet for masculinity through contributing, not collecting.

Men need tough love, not more coddling. They’ve been coddled far too long and their initial reaction to women taking a step back is being resentful and joining movements like MGTOW (men go their own way). It’s quite literally like a child throwing a tantrum, threatening the parents with plans of running away from home.

Sweet love

Your strength is gauged not by how much you can repress your true feelings (as opposed to visceral reactions triggered when threatened) but by how impervious your emotional body (heart) is to your mental body (mind)

That is, strength is measured by how ineffective mind control, manipulation, and the sway of the mind is on one.


To put it another way : it’s the ability to tolerate inner conflict and the dissolution of coping mechanisms of the ego.

I believe this is the premise of Dąbrowski’s theory of Positive Disintegration.

Beyond coping

Don’t use your mind to confirm or reassure yourself of what your heart already knows. You’re essentially undoing your connection to your heart and sowing seeds of distrust in yourself.

Whenever you doubt the veracity of an inner knowing, that’s an external thought trying to wedge between you and your heart under the guise of critical thinking. Quip back : if this isn’t the truth, then show me what is instead of making me invert what I do know.

Guidance doesn’t chip away at previous knowledge. It builds on top of what you know. It’s very different when you backtrack on what you know out of a vague doubt that it “might” not be true. Be very aware of that demonic deception that is aimed at distracting you through making you chase your tail.

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