Unio mentalis

The most decisive difference between transformation and any form of dysfunctional busy work (workaholism, escapism, etc) is acceptance. It’s the movement of the heart from a state of resignation (to the apparent implications of the circumstance) to an active state of surrender ( to the divine will that orchestrated the events.). The divine will is fundamentally beyond duality and aligning with it requires a letting go of taking a side (deciding what’s right and what should have happened). This transcendence is the transformative process that eventually allows one to see the divine wisdom writ large, that previously wasn’t observable.

In short, any discomforting situation carries the seeds of a magnificent spiritual transformation beyond what could have been reached in a stable and innocuous situation. Just as we were born fairly early in development and therefore helpless, in order to grow into the complexity that is the brain, so do we have to contend with the growth spurs of our spiritual body as it were. And the clash of the opposites is just the fertile ground for the spirit.


People who rush to cancel people and shame people into canceling controversial figures without allowing space for processing what exactly is happening are the worst, fake-deep, manipulative people who lack boundaries and respect for others. Period. The public sphere is a shared space. It’s not where you establish the rules and dictate what happens. Even if it’s downright shitty, it’s not anyone’s right to try to stop the train because although we share train (space) we operate in our own individual timelines that unfold in unique ways that bear meaning. So to jump the gun with projections and letting the bullets of your own unprocessed agitation fly is transgressing. You have power over your own timeline to choose what to align with and what to divert from but that doesn’t mean you get to create a moralistic hegemony where you actively seek to punish those who don’t pick your side.

Mind you I’m not talking about people who justify evil or who defend evildoers. I’m not talking about people who use deception and are deluded. I’m talking about people who are still undecided or unaware or confused. The only time I’ll ever check anyone is when they try to warp or influence the perspective and perception of others as if others are an extension of their ego. I take that shit super seriously because I know the repercussions. I’ve lived and suffered through people who don’t allow you emotional freedom, who make you feel unsafe if you can’t convince them, who extrapolate false interpretations from your actions to somehow confirm a suspicion they harbour. It’s not ok to intrude on people. It’s not ok to choose to stay and make the person feel how you feel about them instead of just removing yourself from their circle.

Keep your judgements to yourself. Keep your half-baked theories to yourself that burn any nuance at the stake. Just shush. Justice has never ever ever ever ever prevailed by goading others into confessing their shortcomings to you. Let people save face and allow them grace. That is much more likely to make them feel safe enough to sacrifice their attachments and whatever else their ego may have identified with. Just a thought for 2019.

Birth of hope

Ancestral trauma is compounded trauma. It means that you’ve inherited the perspective formed through a psyche under an amygdala attack. It means that you start off with a severe undersupply of possibilities. When you try to find your connection needs in your limitations, you overperform and restrict yourself to fit into the survival template handed down to you. Your system can’t handle the awareness of the fact that your needs exceed what’s currently available to you.

It’s like trying to force yourself into a box and then try to gaslight yourself to believe that it’s really not uncomfortable and that you don’t need a normal bed. Survival depends on limitations because to be able to foresee and predict events and changes you have to control the space you’re in. Therefore, a scarcity mentality will register your self-actualizing tendency as a threat and will attack you much like the t-cells attack the antibodies in autoimmunity. Your mind is literally slowly killing your soul.

One of the tell-tale signs is how you respond to yourself when you feel emotional distress; do you mimic the way an abusive parental figure would talk to you? Another sign is the overarching themes of your desires and goals in life ; often it’s to finish what your parents or ancestors started but couldn’t finish. Beware of that because that carries a lot of karmic undertones in that it’s highly fragmented and misaligned with the universal wellbeing. I.E., the reason they never achieved those goals is probably because it wasn’t rooted in balance and potentiality, but in energy displacement and overcompensation for something else. The biggest sign however is when you feel like you’re mired and sinking in triggers and unconscious self-harm that never seem to abate no matter how much you try. You’re most likely not dealing with something you’re conscious of or something you can identify the root cause of, and you have to have a lot of tolerance and acceptance for yourself in order to find a space within where you can mend what has been passed in bucks.

You have to go beyond the karmic battlefield and go towards everything that you’d prefer to run from or evade. It doesn’t matter how much you achieve in life if you don’t reclaim your own context. Shut down the sabotaging commentary by tuning into what it’s actually saying. It just wants to be heard, that’s all.

Time as a medium instead of a commodity: a concept

Africa is the magnetic center of this planet, much like the heart and the moon. Even time is different – it’s polychronic. They don’t have the delineations we have here – it’s like weekdays, weekends, holidays, work and home is all in a quantum field of fluidity. That also means there are weaker boundaries (overfamiliarity, codependency). In ways, the Western colonizers were the narcissistic prince charming that swept us off the ground with love bombing and making us see our potential for the first time ever…

You mean we can use the resources and not be in need of the community?


Oh no baby what is you doooin…

This work isn’t in the books or for the books

The no.1 thing Africa needs isn’t resources, isn’t education, isn’t political structure, isn’t infrastructure. It’s clarity.

We need clarity to be able to see what’s ours and not doubt it. We need to be able to see beyond the webs of deception that have been woven around and around and made us collapse in shameful defeat. We need to see that it’s not our task to remove the webs nor is it our task to make the recovery look good. We need the clarity to disconnect from the worst timeline of exasperation that opened us up for exploitation.

And understand that the abundance on the planet hinges on us clearing the energetic grids. The strongholds of the West which represents an overactive mind has its roots in our relinquishing what we know simply because it’s not as concrete or intellectual to be validated by the West. This isn’t about white v black. It never was. That’s just another idiotic delineation by a limited mind wanting to seek safety. It was always about the higher good which is the universal good. And we have those who oppose it amongst our kinfolk just as there are those who oppose it in the West. As long as we don’t realize the true baseline and the original crack, we’ll just be scrambling to divide what’s left into more precise pieces.

The powerful thing is, there is a timeline of abundance and holism active in Africa, much like Wakanda. It’s something we access, not create. And we can only access that by letting go of what seems so inevitable simply because it’s been around for so long. We can’t fathom the continent without violence and corruption because we’ve disconnected from the vibrancy that is the heart of this planet. We’ve forgotten our bearings completely and that is the sin we need to be redeemed of.

We’re an alright bunch

Humans were the divine answer to the bloodshed and destruction caused by the powerful jinns who preceded us on earth. We’re literally made of earth, we’re intricately linked to this planet in ways that we can’t escape any destruction we put into it. The very thing that limits us is the very thing that protects us from upsetting the cosmic order. The closer to the natural elements, the more relaxed we are. The more relaxed we are, the more peaceful we become. Surrender and humility are integral parts of peace.

وَإِذْ قَالَ رَبُّكَ لِلْمَلَٰٓئِكَةِ إِنِّى جَاعِلٌ فِى ٱلْأَرْضِ خَلِيفَةً قَالُوٓا۟ أَتَجْعَلُ فِيهَا مَن يُفْسِدُ فِيهَا وَيَسْفِكُ ٱلدِّمَآءَ وَنَحْنُ نُسَبِّحُ بِحَمْدِكَ وَنُقَدِّسُ لَكَ قَالَ إِنِّىٓ أَعْلَمُ مَا لَا تَعْلَمُونَ

And (remember) when your Lord said to the angels: “Verily, I am going to place (mankind) generations after generations on earth.” They said: “Will You place therein those who will make mischief therein and shed blood, – while we glorify You with praises and thanks (Exalted be You above all that they associate with You as partners) and sanctify You.” He (Allah) said: “I know that which you do not know.”

وَعَلَّمَ ءَادَمَ ٱلْأَسْمَآءَ كُلَّهَا ثُمَّ عَرَضَهُمْ عَلَى ٱلْمَلَٰٓئِكَةِ فَقَالَ أَنۢبِـُٔونِى بِأَسْمَآءِ هَٰٓؤُلَآءِ إِن كُنتُمْ صَٰدِقِينَ

And He taught Adam all the names (of everything), then He showed them to the angels and said, “Tell Me the names of these if you are truthful.”

[al-Baqarah: 30-31]

Adam’s mind showed the same fertile ability of the earth to retain and sprout what’s planted in it.

قَالَ لَمْ أَكُن لِّأَسْجُدَ لِبَشَرٍ خَلَقْتَهُۥ مِن صَلْصَٰلٍ مِّنْ حَمَإٍ مَّسْنُونٍ

[Iblees] said: “I am not the one to prostrate myself to a human being, whom You created from sounding clay of altered black smooth mud.”


And Adam was black, in case you’re wondering where all the animosity for African people came from. We started out at the equator, the balanced line on earth where day and night are fairly equal all year around. The heart of humanity is still there and if you want to know the state of our collective heart, just look at the continent.

Silence was the first language

Autumn and Winter are seasons of silence and no distraction. There’s no sound in nature to distract us, nor vivid colours nor constant movements and swaying. The stillness in the external world can then accentuate what we previously would drown in sensory overload; chaos, turmoil, deep sadness. I honestly think this is behind why so many are depressed in this period and I think the depression causes the physical symptoms and not vice versa.

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