There’s no ‘right’ way to process something. Your feelings make up your perspective and the more space you can give your feelings the more clarity you’ll have about just what is being pieced together within you.
The earth may not be flat but most people’s hearts are 2 dimensional. I was led to the very edge of 2 dozen of them, and I kept going until I damn near fell into the void because it was unfathomable to me that these people didn’t have expansive horizons. They would just… glitch out like a video game.. psychical discontinuity can be so jarring and can very well bring on an existential angst if you’re not alert enough to reel yourself back. It’s like most people are npc (non-player characters) with limited scripts and an inability to talk outside the assigned perimeters. It’s absolutely unnerving and extremely draining, especially when you don’t understand that most people’s intellects are preset holograms.
There is no sense to trauma or fear. It doesn’t follow a logical pattern. It operates in a ghost reality that you never can access through your mind or change through your mind. It’s implanted false memories that you know isn’t yours but it still hijacks your system. Trying to resist it or repress it or rack your brains to try to understand it will only make things flare up and in the end you’ll foot the bill of that. It’s a false programming that is meant to keep your focus fixed in a war you never can win.
The only way out is to empathize with how this is affecting you, disregarding your mind’s prompt to not rest until you get rid of chaos. You can’t. You’re drained, confused, tired, scared. That’s a lot on your emotions. Reestablishing how you feel allows you reprieve to stay present. The longer you can stay present the weaker the bond of that false programming gets. Eventually it just withers away and atrophies.
Africa is the magnetic center of this planet, much like the heart and the moon. Even time is different – it’s polychronic. They don’t have the delineations we have here – it’s like weekdays, weekends, holidays, work and home is all in a quantum field of fluidity. That also means there are weaker boundaries (overfamiliarity, codependency). In ways, the Western colonizers were the narcissistic prince charming that swept us off the ground with love bombing and making us see our potential for the first time ever…
You mean we can use the resources and not be in need of the community?
Oh no baby what is you doooin…
The no.1 thing Africa needs isn’t resources, isn’t education, isn’t political structure, isn’t infrastructure. It’s clarity.
We need clarity to be able to see what’s ours and not doubt it. We need to be able to see beyond the webs of deception that have been woven around and around and made us collapse in shameful defeat. We need to see that it’s not our task to remove the webs nor is it our task to make the recovery look good. We need the clarity to disconnect from the worst timeline of exasperation that opened us up for exploitation.
And understand that the abundance on the planet hinges on us clearing the energetic grids. The strongholds of the West which represents an overactive mind has its roots in our relinquishing what we know simply because it’s not as concrete or intellectual to be validated by the West. This isn’t about white v black. It never was. That’s just another idiotic delineation by a limited mind wanting to seek safety. It was always about the higher good which is the universal good. And we have those who oppose it amongst our kinfolk just as there are those who oppose it in the West. As long as we don’t realize the true baseline and the original crack, we’ll just be scrambling to divide what’s left into more precise pieces.
The powerful thing is, there is a timeline of abundance and holism active in Africa, much like Wakanda. It’s something we access, not create. And we can only access that by letting go of what seems so inevitable simply because it’s been around for so long. We can’t fathom the continent without violence and corruption because we’ve disconnected from the vibrancy that is the heart of this planet. We’ve forgotten our bearings completely and that is the sin we need to be redeemed of.
I’m constantly reminded of the fact that I don’t belong; on Reddit, when guests come over and I have to do my best impression of someone not in agony because of severe depression, inane YouTube comments, the conversational limitations set by people I know simply because they can’t avail themselves to the presence of mind or tolerating discomfort in entertaining nuances and lateral thinking.
It makes it easier for me to remain focused on the fact that my gig on this planet is just a gig. It was never meant to be complete. I find existential fulfillment in being and remaining aware of that because that gives me a frame of reference to put things into perspective. Aint-shit-stuff is normal, it’s fine, relax. People are ignorant and bigoted, it’s fine. No, really. The seeds of their own destruction or elevation lies in their character. No one goes unchecked, so I don’t need to monitor people. I just need to make sure that others don’t take me away from what I know. That’d be pretty dumb.
Humans were the divine answer to the bloodshed and destruction caused by the powerful jinns who preceded us on earth. We’re literally made of earth, we’re intricately linked to this planet in ways that we can’t escape any destruction we put into it. The very thing that limits us is the very thing that protects us from upsetting the cosmic order. The closer to the natural elements, the more relaxed we are. The more relaxed we are, the more peaceful we become. Surrender and humility are integral parts of peace.
وَإِذْ قَالَ رَبُّكَ لِلْمَلَٰٓئِكَةِ إِنِّى جَاعِلٌ فِى ٱلْأَرْضِ خَلِيفَةً قَالُوٓا۟ أَتَجْعَلُ فِيهَا مَن يُفْسِدُ فِيهَا وَيَسْفِكُ ٱلدِّمَآءَ وَنَحْنُ نُسَبِّحُ بِحَمْدِكَ وَنُقَدِّسُ لَكَ قَالَ إِنِّىٓ أَعْلَمُ مَا لَا تَعْلَمُونَ
And (remember) when your Lord said to the angels: “Verily, I am going to place (mankind) generations after generations on earth.” They said: “Will You place therein those who will make mischief therein and shed blood, – while we glorify You with praises and thanks (Exalted be You above all that they associate with You as partners) and sanctify You.” He (Allah) said: “I know that which you do not know.”
وَعَلَّمَ ءَادَمَ ٱلْأَسْمَآءَ كُلَّهَا ثُمَّ عَرَضَهُمْ عَلَى ٱلْمَلَٰٓئِكَةِ فَقَالَ أَنۢبِـُٔونِى بِأَسْمَآءِ هَٰٓؤُلَآءِ إِن كُنتُمْ صَٰدِقِينَ
And He taught Adam all the names (of everything), then He showed them to the angels and said, “Tell Me the names of these if you are truthful.”
Adam’s mind showed the same fertile ability of the earth to retain and sprout what’s planted in it.
قَالَ لَمْ أَكُن لِّأَسْجُدَ لِبَشَرٍ خَلَقْتَهُۥ مِن صَلْصَٰلٍ مِّنْ حَمَإٍ مَّسْنُونٍ
[Iblees] said: “I am not the one to prostrate myself to a human being, whom You created from sounding clay of altered black smooth mud.”
And Adam was black, in case you’re wondering where all the animosity for African people came from. We started out at the equator, the balanced line on earth where day and night are fairly equal all year around. The heart of humanity is still there and if you want to know the state of our collective heart, just look at the continent.