It can be difficult to be open to receive what’s good for us and what we need. Often this is because it’s closely related to our core wounds from childhood; deep parts of us that we’ve shut down or dissociated from. And yet, that’s where true fulfillment is experienced. It’s scary because there are so many layers of defensive thoughts and coping mechanisms in between that may deter you from opening up to it all. It may even feel overwhelming and like you’re going to drown in your pain. But if you truly want existential fulfillment, you have to receive it fully and do the preparatory work needed to get there.