What matters the most is that you keep still so that the storm in you knows where to go. It’s not brewing to hurt you, it’s wailing with what only God knows is plaguing it. Don’t take it as an assault. We all howl when hurt. Your ability to be grounded in the present without running away with the storm-chasing thoughts makes you a tower of light. For every second that you do manage to be there, your heart becomes stronger and more of the divine love that we all are suspended in rushes in. So don’t despair if a second is all that you can manage. It counts. Allaah has assigned angels to count every iota of energy you spend seeking the light.