To Dhamcoog

Today was a rainy day and as usual I had a headache (cloudy weather affects me physically) and so when I discovered this new blog that had followed me, I had a cursory scroll through it when I was absolutely enthralled by the deeply introspective and lucid writing. I was inspired and honoured that such a gifted person would gravitate towards me. I wanted to follow back and read more when my headache eased.

To my heartbreak, the blog had been deleted in those hours and I was floored. I had no way of contacting the author and it suddenly came to me that this is how we miss out on so much beauty and inspiration in the world – people don’t feel safe in sharing something so vulnerable or they doubt its value because it’s not something mainstream.

And I wrote this, hoping the person reads this and changes their mind about hiding their work from the world :

The presence of truth is beautiful regardless of where it is or how distant it is. Even in the unknown, it has a gravitational pull on the collective unconscious, much like how the moon’s gravity creates tides on earth.

If you were gifted with insight, with intuition, with an ability to see where others can’t – please know that it’s a divine gift, an amaanah entrusted to you. Don’t bury it, don’t hide it in your self-doubt.

3 responses to To Dhamcoog

  1. Anonymous

    Thank you Mulki. First I thought it will be helpful to write about myself (my interior fragments) as I said. But I have these problems that deter my concentration and focus, and I digress. The truth is that I thought I was not authentic about blogging. So, I felt anxious and asked what the point is. My unbearable addiction to the internet made me lose the meaningful (humanly) things on the internet.

    Walaal, I think these words are what I needed to read, and realize. For sure, I love reading blogs that resemble your kind of blog ā€“ in a way. I will be back blogging, when I end that feeling: that Iā€™m just showing off, that Iā€™m telling people that I exist – when I end my self-doubt.

    Your post is so heavy an honor.

    Amaanadu dhawran.

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    • Neosomaliana – Author

      Wait, you’re Somali? And how do you know my name? Do I know you…? Lol, my curiosity spiked.

      I don’t think you can end self-doubt because it’s not a thing, it’s the lack of something. The more you resist it the more entrenched it becomes because it’s you fighting yourself. Instead, hold on to your original intention regardless of the thoughts that come up. That doesn’t mean you have to act on the intention, as the inner tension arising from the presence of opposites may be too great to divert attention elsewhere. But don’t give those thoughts an automatic validation because you’re playing right into it. The only way to eradicate self-doubt is by being grounded in what you feel is true and accept adverse consequences to that commitment. Don’t seek to establish yourself in a place void of conflict because that clause will prevent you from attaining inner stability. Your heart should be a safe space for your sacred truths regardless of what goes on around you.

      I think it was Fudeyl ibn Ciyaad or at least one of his peers who said that when you’re praying an optional prayer in the masjid and the shaytaan tries to insinuate that you’re showing off, make the salah even longer. His reasoning was that sincerity is to not do something or leave something for other than Allaah. Both are tactics of shaytaan to make you lose your footing.

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