I’ve been given to stabilizing people and especially their neurotic psychopathy so as to be protected from their volatility and fickleness. I couldn’t hold up in the face of an attack, so it was either that I hide completely or go into the lion’s den to tame the existential threat, or at least try to. I spent my entire LIFE thinking that if I give my truth, my empathy, my unconditional love, and presence then perhaps I’d be allowed to just live without being disturbed.
That never worked and never will. Had to learn that the hard way. Had to come to terms with whatever within me is terrified of rejection and humiliation. Had to ground the life within ME by finding meaning in my being.