I need divine love to reunite me with the darkness that shaytaan pits against me. I need to be found by the divine in those terrifying depths instead of hiding from the darkness. I need to dive instead of betting on lots being cast in my favour.
He says he’ll protect me from me, shaytaan does. What he means is he’ll use my fears and insecurities as reasons not to seek Allaah. He’ll make it seem like I’m trash and useless and irredeemable, and to instead compensate for it. He smart. But I don’t use smarts to navigate the world my dear.