Saw a video of a 14 year old Palestinian boy bleeding out in the streets while the Israeli that’s recording him is taunting him saying DIE YOU SON OF A BITCH! DIE! over and over again. The boy is in a pool of his own blood. It appears to be a neckwound. There are Israeli police keeping people at bay but not paying the boy no mind. An ambulance comes and the police yell at him to get up.. On his own! When he struggles to get up, he gets kicked by the police.
It takes all the love in me not to emit hatred. It takes concerted effort to alchemize what that did to my heart. It takes everything for me to make space to contain my visceral reaction and not act on it .
That’s why I abhor when people use their suffering as a shield and a justification. It can shut off your conscience so much so that you feel entitled to bullying and hurting others. I’m seeing more and more of this. It’s a very dangerous territory. Very volatile. Pain used as fuel for hatred is nuclear. Nuclear. I see people bullying and taunting white people for no apparent reason other than a self-righteous entitlement and I’m thinking… it’s all fun and games now but you’re not seeing where this is headed. Beware of going down a path whose destination isn’t clear to you. You don’t control what happens on that path. Your only control is whether you’re going to get on it.
I’m not transmuting my rage triggered by zionists because I believe in some positive vibes only bs. But I’m a warehouse of explosives. I’ve taken many years to heal the atrocities others have done to me. Unimaginable shit. One spark and I have enough fuel and ammunition till kingdom comes. But I don’t want that life. I don’t want to be the cause of more destruction, nor do I want to remain in that realm.