I only make sense when looked at holistically. People who try to look into parts of me will get misguided into rabbit holes that lead them farther away from me. Most of me is extempore, spontaneous, off the cuff, going with the flow. I never prepare or plan, so I obviously don’t put too much stock into thoughts and making sense. If you ask me why I do half the things I do I’ll be hard-pressed to give you a straightforward answer. It’ll either be a shrug or a long-winded philosophical rant.
It’s like standing outside a forest and being confident that it’s a forest even though you haven’t seen everything inside that forest. You just have to trust that everything I do has a consistent pattern because it’s all coming from one place : my heart. No conflicting vibes, no multiple directions.