Some pains you have to suffer to find release from, even if it’s not fair. The suffering of dejection and defeat is different from that of breaking free; one eats away at your light and slowly kills your soul, the other fuels your light and emboldens your soul with each pang.
When you’re breaking free from a paradigm that has been forced upon you, it’ll be tough and you will often feel it’s pointless. It’s not. If it was pointless or if that’s how your life was meant to be you wouldn’t be restless and have your soul tugged at. The very magnetism that is creating the momentum in you that is stirring things up is the reality aligned with your soul. It’s complete and in existence. You just need to remove everything that you’ve consciously engaged in that goes against you.
Know that everything that Allaah intended feels harmonious. If something feels off, it’s not because the dunya wasn’t meant to be blissful anyway. There’s something untrue that you’re shoving down your soul. You’re not living truthfully.
The struggle and density that you’re feeling as you’re breaking free is not from the change, but it’s the expulsion of the falsehoods you ingested and willfully housed in yourself. Karmic fines have to be settled before you can have your divinely issued reality restored.