Not this time

Just like all of earth is a masjid, all of life is deen. Even the trivial, seemingly non-religious aspects. There is no delineation of religion in Islaam because true religion is spiritual. It’s not a distinction between the “worldly” and the “religious”. If you’re heart based, you’ll see Allaah’s intentions and plans everywhere.


This world is a fractal of everything in existence. It’s perfectly sequenced. Nothing is out of place. Nothing needs your control, just surrender. Reflect.

So many Muslims are afraid of reflecting because they think the deen is a tightrope. That’s very bizarre and inverted because the deen isn’t something we can possess or retain by virtue. It’s an endowment and a grace that isn’t merit based. Nothing we do ensures that we receive anything or lose anything. Allaah is the Most Generous and He has imbued this cosmos with abundance, but it is our egos that block the access to that abundance through mental contraptions.

You only need to come to Allaah with vulnerability at all times, at all costs. Which means showing up with your inner reality being congruent with what you display. And if there are ideals you wish to embody, don’t do it cosmetically by forcing it. Take all of you, wherever you go. Or else you’ll snap back like a rubber band. And you’ll seriously fragment your psyche. How do you think people apostate? It’s usually the most zealous too.

The reason why the prophet sallAllaahu calayhi wasallam said the most beloved of actions to Allaah are the most consistent even if they be little, is because it’s not about goal orientation because this is a gig that’ll last until the grave. It’s about balance. And balance fluctuates based on where you are, with a fixed baseline of course ( 5 daily prayers, integrity, hijab,etc). It’s about maintaining a spiritual homeostasis, keeping your psyche intact and not shattering yourself in the process of trying to attain some unattainable, perfectionistic ideal that’s an extension of the neurosis that has poisoned your spirit. The ebbs and flows of life is challenging enough without you straining yourself with things that threaten to break you.

Allaah is opposite to how others (parents, society, friends) interacted with you. You don’t need to prove your worth. Your connection isn’t based on how useful you are. You are unconditionally accepted, meaning you can come to Allaah as you are, based on where you are. The whole point is to let Allaah accompany you through your personal struggles and unique journey. There is no limit to what you can ask and seek help in. Literally,your imagination is the limit. He is forgiving, present, loving, powerful, aware, attentive, rich, caring. Nothing you do is a qualifier for His Mercy. It’s a birthright He’s given you by creating you.

أَلَا يَعْلَمُ مَنْ خَلَقَ وَهُوَ اللَّطِيفُ الْخَبِيرُ

{Should not He Who has created know? And He is the Most Kind and Courteous, (to His slaves) All-Aware (of everything).}

(Al-Mulk :14)

4 responses to Not this time

  1. Mulki, thank you first. These words touched me so deep, till I couldn’t help to comment. I’m having problems with the deen – probably with myself (I may say a sort of spiritual crisis). Reading your post tonight, for me, was so liberating. You said “…it is our egos that block the access to that abundance through mental contraptions.” So much mental contraptions.
    I just wonder how you transform other souls out there.

    Ajar iyo xasanaad

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    • Neosomaliana – Author

      I’m infinitely grateful that I got to transmit these thoughts that helped you. It’s as cathartic to me to hear how cathartic it was for you. Thank you for reaching out to share this with me. I hope you find meaning in your crisis.

      Malaa’ig ha ku salaanto

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