People put up with bs and malice because of some pleasure factor that they think balances it out. Pull the plug on whatever feel-good elements you’re hoping to source from the outside ( validation, belonging, promotion, protection etc) because it’s an illusion. It’ll never last. And that’s what holds you back in life.
Next time you’re frustrated with yourself and wonder why you’re stuck or why you end up with the same toxic themes, ask yourself what your payoff is. Go beyond the egotistical self-deception that will have you believe that you’re an innocent victim to absolve your conscience of responsibility. Taking responsibility is your only way out of the matrix.