my ego makes me powerless

Boat with refugees heading to Sudan from Yemen was attacked by what’s believed to be Saudi helicopter in the ongoing war in Yemen. 40+ Somalis killed. Dozens wounded.

I often block out the countless tragedies and suffering that permeates the world because I feel it all too deeply and can quickly become overwhelmed with despair because I feel helpless. But what if I’m not meant to do anything but empathize and make ducaa? Why is acknowledging one’s helplessness a bad thing? Why is invoking divine support seen as far-fetched? Do I really and truly believe that I can correct all that’s wrong and heal all the wounds in this world alone? When I only have one lifetime? When there’s a God who put this entire universe at my disposal, if only  I humble myself enough to ask for help.

I realize how much of my ego I’ve placed ahead of people’s suffering. How much I’ve avoided because I thought the onus of fixing things lay on me, as if those suffering were too weak to avert tragedies. How much have I postponed because I thought I had to be someone I’m not? How much love have I forgone because I thought it wasn’t impactful enough? How much could the duaas I saw as inconsequential actually set in motion? How much could I heal by simply connecting to another’s helpless agony, without trying to fix them? How many times has my self-importance made me miss the point entirely?

قَالَ مُوسَىٰ لِقَوْمِهِ اسْتَعِينُوا بِاللَّهِ وَاصْبِرُوا إِنَّ الْأَرْضَ لِلَّهِ يُورِثُهَا مَنْ يَشَاءُ مِنْ عِبَادِهِ وَالْعَاقِبَةُ لِلْمُتَّقِينَ

Mûsa (Moses) said to his people: “Seek help in Allaah and be patient. Verily, the earth is Allaah’s. He gives power over it to whom He will of His slaves, and the (blessed) end is for the conscientious 

al-A’raaf [7]: 128

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