Originally written June 13th, 2015
Just finished watching End of Watch and lemme tell you something. That shit is fucked up. I fully understood something that I had faint notions about. This fucking police brutality, it’s not as black and white as people make it out to be. It doesn’t happen in vacuum. It’s an ecosystem of extreme violence created by capitalism that reduced humans to automatons on a fucking assembly line.
Who would want to be a cop? Who in their right mind would go through the nerve-wracking lifestyle of always looking over their shoulders for death? Drug cartels,a pervasive hatred of the police and utter disregard,shitty pay,bleak outlooks. The entire structure of society is on their frail shoulders.
It’s far more complex than scapegoating the police and making them shoulder all responsibility of what’s going on in the US of A. I see statistics making the rounds on social media, of police brutality being lower in other countries. Fam! It’s because the people and society are fundamentally different. American cops are fucked because the people are fucked.America was founded on massgraves. Millions were enslaved for capitalistic ends. It goes way deeper than white cops and Sean Hannity and blacklivesmatter.
Has anyone asked themselves what kind of lives these kids are leading ? Or is a life only valuable after its death? The death of hope and love in someone’s heart is far worse than the death of their body.
“The more the drive toward life is thwarted, the stronger is the drive toward destruction; the more life is realized, the less is the strength of destructiveness . Destructiveness is the outcome of unlived life.” — Erich Fromm (Escape from Freedom)
I think America has sleepwalked into a mess it can’t get out of and people shut down because they don’t know what else to do. So they hold on tight to the star-spangled banner, the land of the free, latest Christopher Nolan flick, the mythical American dream which is in actuality a nightmare. Anyone who points out any fault in the system gets barraged with well-rehearsed lines of defenses; world hates ‘Murica, every country got issues, whatever. But amongst themselves, they give each other frightened, knowing looks that tell a different story. They know but their pride is their only lifeline. If they wake up from their slumber where the American dream is, they’ll discover a reality that’s a nightmare.
And to those wondering why on earth I dwell on negative stuff; this isn’t some imaginary scenario my fears have conjured. It’s a reality that grows because people would rather be in denial in hopes of it resolving itself. It’s because we’re so pain averse that it keeps growing. So I’d rather be in pain and be aware than numb myself. It’s when we allow the pain that we feel empathy.
“One cannot be deeply responsive to the world without being saddened very often.” — Erich Fromm
I cuss like a fucking sailor and it’s fucking relieving. I need to eat.