Lighthouses don’t go running all over an island looking for boats to save; they just stand there shining.
I’ve had that quote run through my mind for some time now. I’m not a lighthouse and that’s why I don’t shine. I’d like to be steady in my own truth, my own skin without worrying about clarifying to people and making sure they understand me and what I’m about. I want to have my own secrets without it being any less intriguing. I want to enjoy my own company, be with my own thoughts. I don’t want to be a stranger to myself, like I am now. I’m more of an observer, a guest in myself. I’m confused,vague,hesitant. I want to be a lighthouse and I don’t want to run anymore.