Narnia 2.0

Small and hidden is the door that leads inward, and the entrance is barred by countless prejudices, mistaken assumptions, and fears. Always one wishes to hear of grand political and economic schemes, the very things that have landed every nation in a morass. 

Therefore it sounds grotesque when anyone speaks of hidden doors, dreams, and a world within. What has this vapid idealism got to do with gigantic economic programmes, with the so-called problems of reality?
But I speak not to nations, only to the individual few, for whom it goes without saying that cultural values do not drop down like manna from heaven, but are created by the hands of individuals. If things go wrong in the world, this is because something is wrong with the individual, because something is wrong with me. 

Therefore, if I am sensible, I shall put myself right first. For this I need—because outside authority no longer means anything to me—a knowledge of the innermost foundations of my being, in order that I may base myself firmly on the eternal facts of the human psyche.” 

C.G. Jung, The Meaning of Psychology for Modern Man

I slam phobias

​Whilst the rise in islamophobic violence is disconcerting, this is not the time to indulge hysteria. Violence is something we’re blessed not to witness on a consistent basis in the West. People in Somalia, Yemen, Congo, Palestine, Syria, Venezuela, Myanmar can’t say the same. Does our distress impact us more than their distress impacts them? Yes, but only because of our perception.
I understand that what I’m proposing is antithetical to the lulling affirmations floating around on social media, but hear me out when I say that these incidents are wake-up calls. This is not the time to sleep.

This is a time for expansion, not contraction.
This is a time for idealism, not ideologies.
This is a time for transcending evil, not resisting it.
This is a time for bold hope, not defiant despair.

These are isolated incidents. Please don’t spread hysteria by making it seem like every Muslim is a marked person. That is not only false, but it’s anti-Islaamic to spread despair. That’s not the ethos of our religion. We believe that nothing happens except by the permission of Allaah and that everyone was born with a limited time on earth, according to His perfect wisdom. No one will escape what has been decreed for them. No one. So to inspire fear won’t keep death at bay, only joy.
Furthermore, the prophet sallAllaahu alayhi wasallam has taught us that these times will come and he has taught us to reflect on ourselves when tragedies strike.
We’ve been given heads up so as to find solace in patience, knowing that this world was nothing but a test. Whether in prosperity or adversity, we’re always being tested.
Falling into despair and lashing out at non-Muslims, blaming them as a collective and wanting their sympathy, is pathetic. They didn’t cause this. This is a test from Allaah. They are merely the means through which we’re tested. We’ve abandoned ourselves and practicing the truth of Islaam. People are either using it as a cover for their totalitarianism or being nihilistic about it.
The world needs Muslims to wake tf up. We’re being affected by the same evil that affects those oppressed and undermined elsewhere: the degradation of humanity and loss of the empathetic bond that tie us all. Our existence isn’t atomized; our apathy has returned to haunt us. For 16 years, the West led by the US has been terrorizing the world and it’s only now that we’re realizing that a monster doesn’t have loyalty; its tyranny will be extended to the poor and minorities. It will be extended to blacks and refugees and the working class. Don’t you see? It’s come full circle, and all the while we trusted that they’d keep us safe. But alas, they were saving the best for last.

So, check yourselves. You have a duty towards yourself: to not despair, towards Allaah: to be cognizant of the fact that most of the time we enjoy stability and peace, and towards others: to not take out your anger or frustration on them.

إِنَّمَا ذَٰلِكُمُ الشَّيْطَانُ يُخَوِّفُ أَوْلِيَاءَهُ فَلَا تَخَافُوهُمْ وَخَافُونِ إِن كُنتُم مُّؤْمِنِينَ

{It is only Shaitaan (Satan) that suggests to you the fear of his Auliyaa [supporters and friends] so fear them not, but fear Me, if you are (true) believers. }
(Aali Imran 3:175)

 

مَّا كَانَ اللَّهُ لِيَذَرَ الْمُؤْمِنِينَ عَلَىٰ مَا أَنتُمْ عَلَيْهِ حَتَّىٰ يَمِيزَ الْخَبِيثَ مِنَ الطَّيِّبِ وَمَا كَانَ اللَّهُ لِيُطْلِعَكُمْ عَلَى الْغَيْبِ وَلَٰكِنَّ اللَّهَ يَجْتَبِي مِن رُّسُلِهِ مَن يَشَاءُ فَآمِنُوا بِاللَّهِ وَرُسُلِهِ ۚ وَإِن تُؤْمِنُوا وَتَتَّقُوا فَلَكُمْ أَجْرٌ عَظِيمٌ

{Allaah will not leave the believers in the state in which you are now, until He distinguishes the wicked from the good. Nor will Allaah disclose to you the secrets of the Ghaib (unseen), but Allaah chooses of His Messengers whom He pleases. So believe in Allaah and His Messengers. And if you believe and fear Allaah, then for you there is a great reward. }
(Aali Imran 3:179)

أَوَلَمَّا أَصَابَتْكُم مُّصِيبَةٌ قَدْ أَصَبْتُم مِّثْلَيْهَا قُلْتُمْ أَنَّىٰ هَٰذَا قُلْ هُوَ مِنْ عِندِ أَنفُسِكُمْ ۗ إِنَّ اللَّهَ عَلَىٰ كُلِّ شَيْءٍ قَدِيرٌ

{(What is the matter with you?) When a single disaster smites you, although you smote (your enemies) with one twice as great, you say: “From where does this come to us?” Say (to them), “It is from yourselves (because of your evil deeds).” And Allaah has power over all things.}
(Aali Imran 3:165)

إِن يَنصُرْكُمُ اللَّهُ فَلَا غَالِبَ لَكُمْ وَإِن يَخْذُلْكُمْ فَمَن ذَا الَّذِي يَنصُرُكُم مِّن بَعْدِهِ وَعَلَى اللَّهِ فَلْيَتَوَكَّلِ الْمُؤْمِنُونَ

{If Allaah helps you, none can overcome you; and if He forsakes you, who is there after Him that can help you? And in Allaah (Alone) let believers put their trust. }
(Aali Imran 3:160)

وَلَئِن قُتِلْتُمْ فِي سَبِيلِ اللَّهِ أَوْ مُتُّمْ لَمَغْفِرَةٌ مِّنَ اللَّهِ وَرَحْمَةٌ خَيْرٌ مِّمَّا يَجْمَعُونَ

{And if you are killed or die in the Way of Allaah, forgiveness and mercy from Allaah are far better than all that they amass (of worldly wealths, etc.).}
(Aali Imran 3:157)

 

وَلَئِن مُّتُّمْ أَوْ قُتِلْتُمْ لَإِلَى اللَّهِ تُحْشَرُونَ

{And whether you die, or are killed, verily, unto Allaah you shall be gathered. }
(Aali Imran 3:158)

وَلَا تَهِنُوا وَلَا تَحْزَنُوا وَأَنتُمُ الْأَعْلَوْنَ إِن كُنتُم مُّؤْمِنِينَ

{So do not become weak (against your enemy), nor be sad, and you will be superior (in victory) if you are indeed (true) believers.}
(Aali Imran 3:139)

 

أَمْ حَسِبْتُمْ أَن تَدْخُلُوا الْجَنَّةَ وَلَمَّا يَأْتِكُم مَّثَلُ الَّذِينَ خَلَوْا مِن قَبْلِكُم ۖ مَّسَّتْهُمُ الْبَأْسَاءُ وَالضَّرَّاءُ وَزُلْزِلُوا حَتَّىٰ يَقُولَ الرَّسُولُ وَالَّذِينَ آمَنُوا مَعَهُ مَتَىٰ نَصْرُ اللَّهِ أَلَا إِنَّ نَصْرَ اللَّهِ قَرِيبٌ

{Or think you that you will enter Paradise without such (trials) as came to those who passed away before you? They were afflicted with severe poverty and ailments and were so shaken that even the Messenger and those who believed along with him said, “When (will come) the Help of Allaah?” Yes! Certainly, the Help of Allaah is near! }

(Al-Baqarah 2:214)

terra incognita

I’ll stand firm awaiting your return
My life is art
A monument of my honesty
A manifestation of my trust

In the blank pages and vast spaces in between

It’s a silent protest
my life is,,-
A demonstration of the discarded pieces that didn’t fit into the frame of yesterday’s world
A reconciliation of paradoxes and contrasts

I’m a stream gushing through caverns amidst the shifting seasons
I’m letting Allaah show different facets of me like the phases of the moon

When you let go, you let in everything
What you need you possess
Rejecting parts of you is rejecting Allaah’s blessings
And when those parts come up to the surface, clamouring for life you run away
You run away from yourself
And into the clutches of what you covet
When your grip weakens, why you panicking, screaming bloody murder?

I’m not going to deny myself
I’m not going to attach myself to what isn’t of me
In honouring myself, I honour Allaah’s wisdom in creating me
And that’s why I know my deepest powers are rooted in my insecurities
My beauty entangled with my flaws
I’m not day or night, I’m all of time, all the time
My essence escapes my cognition

 

point of no surrender

​​I know you think that I shouldn’t still love you

Or tell you that

But if I didn’t say it, well I’d still have felt it

Where’s the sense in that?


I promise I’m not trying to make your life harder

Or return to where we were


I will go down with this ship

And I won’t put my hands up and surrender

There will be no white flag above my door

I’m in love and always will be


– Dido, White flag

oak tree

He’s the duaas I didn’t dare make 

He’s the words that escape me

He’s the feelings that portray me

He’s all my feel-good memories melted together

He’s the taste of October

He’s what turquoise would sound like 

He gives my soul a home

core seed

“Sometimes I need

only to stand

wherever I am 

to be blessed.” 

— Mary Oliver (Evidence: Poems)

                                  °°°

And this I finally understood…the signs I was seeking on the outside were woven into the fabric of my feelings. The treasures I seek are buried in the character traits I embody. Oh Allaah make my mind a fertile land that receives the rain in abundance, allowing me to bloom in earnest. I’m tired of these imports. 

when we’re fire

I’m a discomfort absorber. Pain dashpot. Lemme redeem myself by not reminding you of the borders that announce my existence, just to remain in your presence because I’ve learnt that love is only safe and lasting in the shade. What do I do if the darkness is too cold and the light is too sharp? Oh how deep this emptiness goes. How wide the horizon is. It runs endlessly. An unrelenting reminder of how a shadow is doomed to always lag behind.

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